Recent content by yesman

In the past (and I know I mentioned this already in another thread) I used to be turned on and aroused by my sadistic sexual thoughts. I even masturbated to them. Nowadays, I get the same thoughts, except I'm mortified by them. I don't want to masturbate to them anymore. Since I wasn't bothered...

I need strong, objective people to read my story, and determine who's at fault for my bad relationship with my brother. I think it started in grade 3. My brother, let's call him Jon, started calling me names like "stupid, idiot, etc". Because of my Tourettes, I was unable to realize that what...

Hi everyone, In grade 10, my OCD and self-hatred/self-abuse was spiraling out of control. To release my emotions, I would bully people and tease them mercilessly. I regret it very much, and have made up with the people I have bullied. However, as the new school year approaches, I'm worried...

Like, this club will help raise awareness not just for OCD, but for all mental illness. I originally wanted to start an engineering club at my high school, but this idea seems much better, because 1) I have a vested interest in mental illness, and 2) I have a lot more experience with it. I'm...

When I was feeling upset over my friend's depression, and my lack of helpfulness in the past, Roundabout was the only thing that kept me going through the day. It's such a happy song, so optimistic, unlike the songs I listen to by Rush. (Rush is also an amazing band, no doubt, but some of their...

In real life, I can be the nicest guy ever. I like giving others compliments, I like having fun with other people, and I dislike seeing violence in real life. But in my head, I'm a completely different person. I regularly have sadistic sexual thoughts...I'm not gonna lie, I have thoughts about...

I'm a 17 year old guitar player in Oakville, Ontario, looking to play YES and Rush music with others around my age. I know how to play the following by YES: -yours is no disgrace -long distance runaround/the fish -perpetual change -siberian khatru -heart of the sunrise -roundabout -shock to the...

I thought I was safe from my fears that I was a pedophile. I decided to test myself out, by thinking about little kids in sexual poses. I tried masturbating to those thoughts. My reasoning was this: if I ejaculated or experienced an erection, I should assume that I AM a pedophile. If I didn't...

Forgive me if I misunderstand PTSD. I'm currently having delusions in which I am a pedophile. This is the second time in a couple of months. I know, many of you already said I'm not, but the thing about OCD that you all know is that it takes more than that to calm ocd sufferers down. Anyway, I...

Hi everyone, My troubles are back. For one month, starting in November, my OCD made me believe that I'm a pedophile. For one month, I had to endure pure pain and torture. Now, it's all coming back. Whenever I see a little kid, I start fearing for his or her life. Whenever I see them, I don't...

When I was in grade 8 and 9, I was a perverted person. A generally well-meaning guy, but still perverted. In grade 9, I made a TON of sexual comments about this one girl, and I didn't even think I was doing anything wrong. It wasn't explicit stuff. It was more like "here let me get that for you"...

When I was in grade 8 or 9, my mom's chronic pain got so bad. I didn't know she had chronic pain...with my mindset of tough love, I thought that she was simply being an attention *****. I treated her like she was an attention *****. Right now, I'm fully aware of what chronic pain is, and I now...

When I was in grade 3, I found a new gang of friends that I felt like I belonged in. Together, we all did some "bad boy" stuff, like pick on some people here and there. I joined in on this behavior because I wanted revenge after I was bullied for around a month in grade 2, because of my "funny"...

The reason why I want to know is this: I think I have Munchausen's. I've noticed that a bunch of people who have Munchausen's have it because they were unloved by their parents, or abused themselves, or endured some horrible experiences. Then, where was my horrible experience? The only bad thing...

in medium-loud settings, I sound like Robert from Everybody Loves Raymond. However, I have this little story... One time, in my loud school caf, I had to yell all the way across to one of my friends sitting at the other side of the room. So I had my Blackberry Playbook lying around, and I...