No, I didn't think you were rude at all. I was very concerned about you, because after reading your posts, I thought you were trying to reach out for my help or just someone to listen to you, and I wasn't there when you needed help. So I felt guilty and terrible inside, especially as low as you were. I have been there so many times, so I know how you must have felt. I am glad that you are alright, and that you are back here again. Please don't let it get that bad again, if you can help it. There are many here that care. Please please PLEASE pm me or whoever here that you are comfortable sharing your thoughts and feelings with before going down that path again! Glad your back!