Hellhound, please don't go jumping out into traffic. There are people, such as myself and your boyfriend, who would miss you dearly. If you don't like your therapist, then it would be for the best if you changed. Some events in our life are our faults or we share some fault in them. But, for you, I don't think everything in your life is completely your fault. Others need to take their share of the blame as well. Maybe there are some things where you had absolutely no fault. I don't know you that well, so I can't say. You are the one who knows best. You decide where you messed up and then work to make up for it, okay
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