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    I feel happy when I'm sad!

    Hi,y'all! :) 'been back after a long while. Recently I realized a strange thing about myself; I actually feel happy and contented when I am sad and emotionally hurt (but NOT anxious and frustrated) On the other hand I feel uncomfortable and anxious when I am so called happy and everything's...
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    Post what you cannot say

    Mom: I know I am not turning up to be the person u wanted me to be. Feeling's mutual. I love you anyway. Dad: We could have done so much music together, but ur indifference isn't really helping. My best friend: I've been ghost of what I used to be with you since you left. Anwesha: You...
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    Things/Phrases/Quotes that motivate u when u'r truly down!

    U guys know what I'm talkin about. I think sharing this will prove to be really helpful to all of us. :) Mine goes: "Complain that roses have thorns or rejoice that thorns have roses." "Am I really this hurt? Or my disease distorting my view?" "Am I truly that different from the person I'm...
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    Cyberbullying!!

    Has any of guys here been a victim of internet-bullying?? My friend is being harassed (not only facebook but her blogs, various sites) and bullied over the internet seriously for past few years. Her ignore list filled up pretty quickly and she reported several to site admins. But she was not...
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    Difficulty in eye contact

    Yep guys, I have difficulty maintaining eye contact with everyone except my family and really close ones. ::o: Curious to know anyone out there having the same. Also did any of you overcome it? If yes, HOW???
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    This is important! Pls comment

    Hey guys, as y'all know I have SA. Recently I have developed a very annoying and destructive trait. I BRING HOME MY WORRIES! For example: If I get into a sticky situation in college that involves my self-esteem (eg. bullying.. etc) or if I get embarrassed at a friends house or a party, I...
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    How much do you have to lie due to your SA?

    Well, for me, I create false, elaborate scenarios often to avoid unwanted socializing... How about you?
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    My thoughts right now

    My mind is like a monster living inside me. A hungry one. It only feeds on anxiety, negativity, contempt, frustration, depression, anger and hatred. I try to relax it. Calm it down. But it would always squirm about. It has an eternal hunger. Nothing works. Sometimes I try to over-feed it. It's...
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    Story of my pathetic life. (WARNING: REALLY LONG!!)

    Hi y'all, this is decadent. Following is the story of my pathetic life. Well I've been a victim of bullying (both verbal and physical... mostly verbal), social phobia and anxiety roughly my whole life. It started in primary school, continued to high school. It made me paranoid, overly...
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