BlackPuma

Hi my friend. Tell me something good. I could really use it right now. I feel like I am heading in a downward spiral straight to a place I really don't want to go. It's funny usually I am the one trying to help everyone out. Right now though I am really not sure what is going to happen with me.

Hey Just wanted to say hi, you always reply to my threads and I find what you have to say quite... level headed. It brings me down to earth when I go a bit nuts.

people either "get it" or they don't

no one can change until they are ready to

Thanks for your reply to my thread

Hey thanks for that. Sometimes I feel like fear and violence are dominating my mind, but then I take a step back and realize that I am actually a pretty decent guy, thanks for reminding me. LOL. Are you doing any better on the job hunt?

I too am sorry for the late response. I am ok. I have been spending a lot of time with my daughters lately and doing a workout program that is slowly killing me. LOL. But.......I have been having some problems with the more primative side of my personality lately. The other side of the panic coin. Rage. I have had to take xanax twice this week and not for panic. Sometimes it scares me what I have caged in me, and what I am physicaly capable of if I ever let it out. It also makes me very sad too, because I know I am better than that. Anyway I am kinda ranting on your page, sorry about that. I hope every thing is going well? Let me know I could use a mood boost.

Hey Puma, not sure if you saw this, so reposting here: You can get piano lessons for free, trading for lessons of something else you can do... so it's possible, even without resources, and you could practise on school/university or neighbours' pianos or such... (I wish I knew this when I was younger! )

I think the entire world should learn to appreciate long hair. I sometimes wish I was a guy just so I could grow my hair out, love the natural..ness, but on women, it just doesn't have the roughnatural appeal anymore..thanks stereotypes! Uhm. haha. You're welcome!

Yoyoyoyo. Creeped your pictures on the picture thread. I ADORE your hair! And think you have a beautiful face.

its intresting how you say if you stay up after 5.00am u stay up to the next night i have tried this but its very hard to do my sleep pattern is never stable im getting it back at the moment my ideal sleep pattern would be sleep at 10pm wake at 7am i would love to keep that pattern

Yeah I cannot stand it when someone takes my picture. It almost never really looks like me because when I try to smile and it is not genuine I look weird and fake. I hate being in pictures. Hows is everything in you? Good I hope?

Ha I just saw your picture on the post your picture thread. So I have solved your employment problem!!! Be a model dude!!!! work out for a couple of months, and then model underwear. I didn't realize you were that handsome.

Yeah man, my boss was just being a huge dick to me. It hurt me the most yesterday because I have been doing better with my Social Anxiety... his *******ness makes it worse for me. At least when I'm anxious, he doesn't affect me, but when I'm calm and enjoying my day, he can make it worse . It's allright, I'm good now, thanks

Boo!~

Thanks for the "mood boost" bud, could really use it right now

My pleasure, sorry I didn't do it sooner to be honest.

Hey no problem always looking out for my friends.

No problem dude, anytime

Hey man , sorry about your cat. I know how sad that can be personally. Pets can become very close creatures to us. Hope she enjoyed her time here .

Hey whats up blackpuma? From what I am reading on your page it looks like you lost an animal. If you are anything like me than I am deeply sorry for you. I cry shamelessly when ever I lose an animal. LOL. One of my dogs died 3 years ago, and I still cry sometimes when I think about it. Anyway I hope you are doing ok.