Life's not so gray everywhere, I like that. My imagination or knowledge is basically responsible for the fact that I'm still alive. Perhaps I share a similar philosophy with you. While I suffer, I often consider things that are larger than myself, and although I feel reduced to a small speck on this planet, that astonishment or zest is renewed.
Are you originally from Holland? Your English is great. Then again, I don't know how old you are. :
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