Your boyfriend lives in another country!!!!!! That sucks!!!! Boo!!! I feel for you very much when you talk of greyness. That feeling of stagnation and bored apathy, can sometimes be worse than anxiety. I don't handle it as gracefully as you probably do. How did you wind up in a long distance relationship? If you guys are really happy together, can't one of you move? I don't want to urge you to rush into anything, but two incomes make living quite a lot easier to have a fun life these days. Even when I was single I always had roomates. As far as boredom goes, my answer is always the same, work out, a lot. But that's not as fun and fulfilling for some, as it is for me. I hope that your next check brings you some fun, to shake things up like you said. Chin up my friend, at I am sure when you go to Portugal, it will be anything but boring.