Recent content by aloneloner

how do you survive? I'm currently making $11 per hour.. full time, and I cant afford an apartment. Trying to find some room for rent type thing is also hard. most are only looking for females, or nanny's,.. or "sane" persons.. I'm stuck here for now.. abusive step mom and step sister... how can...

I had a therapist before, but my insurance through work payed for most of it. I lost that job and can no longer afford it. My issues have cost multiple jobs and it just keeps getting worse. While in therapy it got better, I had hope of overcoming these issues..but its too expensive. I'm not...

I have severely low self esteem and major depression.. and possibly social anxiety disorder (my last therapist, who I only say 3 times, said she thinks it is just severely low self esteem and depression. I was diagnosed with SAD and depression at a hospital i stayed in for 3 weeks) accepting...

I cant afford a therapist, I have no one close to me that I can talk to... I have no hope to get any help, this is the only place i can get this out... i hear voices in my head... ive heard that schizophrenics often hear voices in their head, but never thought i had schizophrenia.. I've only...

I feel like a failed experiment and everyone is watching/judging my every move People i thought i could trust just end up using me..but thats my fault for being an easy target... I cant walk outside my house without one of my neighbors glaring at me I need help, but the only option for help...

I need help. I was seeing a therapist about 3 months ago and it was going good. She said she thinks that I don't have social anxiety, and the depression is more situational then just a chemical imbalance. I don't think I have a very hard life, but she said compared to other people my life has...

I know this isn't the place to go to for legal advise.. I'm getting an attorney tomorrow but wanted to ask here.. I got in an argument with a girl the other day, it started with talking..then yelling, on her part..then she came after me. I ended up subduing her in a headlock and kept yelling...

I used to think that I would get better..lately I've just been trying to accept the fact that I'll always be socially awkward. I just got an apartment with my sister, but shes always at her boyfriends house so I basically live alone. I feel like most people think I'm like a serial killer or...

I dont want to fight anymore, I dont want to hurt anymore..i never pictured my life being like this :/ I have so much to be thankful for, a good job, i can afford my own place..all my bills get paid on time, my family at least acts like they care but I hear them talk about me behind my back...

my problems keep getting worse as I get older..nothing helps it, its getting harder to just keep on living..whats the point of even trying to be happy when I have no one to share it with..the bullys have won, now what? I need something to live for..maybe this is just the lonliness but I want...

I have soo many people trying to help me right now with my anxiety, but it only seems to be getting worse. I dont know how to talk to people..I always feel like they just think I'm pathetic, which I guess is true since I can barely even function around people sometimes I just want to have some...

..it started as awkwardness when I was a child..then I was shy in grade school..panic attacks in high school..social isolation..lost hope in humanity.. Looking back on my life scares me now, everything I did to prevent this..has caused it..Whats next?

Does god love me? Am I worth that love? Does anyone understand? Why is life so hard? Why does my sister still do drugs? Why is my dad so stressed all the time? Is my mom still in pain.. Will life get better? Will I ever find love? Is it even worth it asking these questions? When will I know...

I'm very embarrassed doing this..but something needs done. I want to find a therapist, but just the thought of it causes too much anxiety :sad: I would like to find someone caring enough to help me through finding a therapist..I know that's asking a lot..maybe too much? Has anyone else here...

My mom used to take me along the creek when I was younger. I've always loved walking trails, but it makes me feel uncomfortable going alone:sad: Fear of people thinking I'm weird/crazy...Is it? I love the peacefulness of the woods. It feels like some people look down on that though :crying: