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TreeBones

TreeBones

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PerseverareJasmine said:
That's a nice song. My dad was the one in my family who used to sing lullabies to my older sister and I to make us fall asleep, though he'd usually just make up random lyrics and fit them to whatever tune was in his mind. Some of his lullabies were pretty whacky.

I agree that being able to start over would be nice, a complete redo.
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that's so sweet that your dad would sing to you, I couldn't imagine mine doing that, he's sorta got a macho facade lol, and thank you.
 
TreeBones

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So I found out today that another stranger will be living with us (I don't know how long for). The boy that will be staying with us and his father came over for dinner tonight to get to know us better, I guess. He's a student visiting, but his dad is currently living in a storage unit or something, he used to be a professor at university but got fired recently. I feel really bad but on the other hand my home is where I don't have to put up with anxiety and my mom is always taking people in. Ex convicts, broke people, drug addicts, hobos, you name it. This one time there was this lady who was completely covered in her own urine when she first came, she looked like a hobo straight out of a movie except for her face, she was very pretty. I like that my mom likes to help other people but I wish I could have some privacy, that's all. And on top of that she always says things like "keep our guests company" or "go entertain them or something", that makes me so mad. It's like what do you want me to do? juggle?

I'll be fine though I'm getting kinda used to it now, I feel a bit disconnected from people more that before.. if that makes sense.
 
MikeyC

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TreeBones said:
And on top of that she always says things like "keep our guests company" or "go entertain them or something", that makes me so mad. It's like what do you want me to do? juggle?
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If I ever come visit, I will demand you juggle for me! :bigsmile:

Seriously, though, I can understand how your mother's benevolence and compassion can make you uneasy. Have you talked to her about this?
 
TreeBones

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MikeyC said:
If I ever come visit, I will demand you juggle for me! :bigsmile:

Seriously, though, I can understand how your mother's benevolence and compassion can make you uneasy. Have you talked to her about this?
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:giggle:

Yeah I've told her, I think I just get a little jealous of the way she treats strangers so I complain about it hahaha. For the most part she understands my "unsocialness" when it comes to people staying with us and If I were to tell her how uncomfortable I was with it, she would make other arrangements, but of course I'm not going to do that lol. So I deal.
 
TreeBones

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jc972 said:
In the words or Kurt Cobain, "Here we are now, entertain us!" You could try belly dancing. Kinda neat to watch.
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It's funny that you say that. I actually do bellydance :giggle: . Zoe Jakes from beats antique was like my bellydancing idol back in middle school, ah, she's so beautiful. But there's no way I would do that in front of a stranger, or even parts of my own family for that matter of fact hahaha.
 
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TreeBones said:
It's funny that you say that. I actually do bellydance :giggle: . Zoe Jakes from beats antique was like my bellydancing idol back in middle school, ah, she's so beautiful. But there's no way I would do that in front of a stranger, or even parts of my own family for that matter of fact hahaha.
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Really? No ****? Put it on youtube! I wanna see! :applause:
 
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Today I was supposed to enroll in school, according to my mom there are only two walk in days that you can do that, Tuesday and Wednesday. Since the time on Wednesday is later than Tuesday and my mom doesn't like to get up early, we go on Wednesday. I was supposed to go last week but my mom had appointments at the same time. So she said next week(which is this week). My alarm clock broke and I thought I fixed it but I told my mom just in case to wake me up and she said ok and set an alarm. This morning my mom woke me up and said we missed it again! (It turns out I actually didn't fix my alarm clock), So that means my mom heard her alarm and fell back to sleep.

I got angry but I didn't say anything directly to my mom I just kind of did an angry moan when I was still half asleep, and she told me not to make her feel bad. She kept trying to wake me up and I told her to leave and let me go back to sleep. She finally left my room and whined that nobody loves her, so that I'll feel sorry for her, I guess.

My mom always finds a way to make things all about her, most of my life I've never felt like the child. The only person who takes care of me is me and I feel like I can't even do that to my fullest capability because of my SA. I just wish my mom would care and take initiative for me every once in a while.
 
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Happy 4th of July!!... to anyone who happens to read this haha. The 4th is stirring up some really bad feelings for me so far,.. yea, it's not going to be a good weekend....

And...on top of that, someone upstairs must really hate me. My iPod..... has.. broken.. ahh!!
My iPod is my baby, it's 64 gb, I was kind of counting on it to last forever.. and it's broken!! Now I'm going to have to make a list of the 600 something songs on it and download them all over again. :eek:mg:

I'm trying to make it funny, because that's what I usually try to do when ****** stuff in life happens.. but it just .. it just isn't.
 
MikeyC

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TreeBones said:
Today I was supposed to enroll in school, according to my mom there are only two walk in days that you can do that, Tuesday and Wednesday. Since the time on Wednesday is later than Tuesday and my mom doesn't like to get up early, we go on Wednesday. I was supposed to go last week but my mom had appointments at the same time. So she said next week(which is this week). My alarm clock broke and I thought I fixed it but I told my mom just in case to wake me up and she said ok and set an alarm. This morning my mom woke me up and said we missed it again! (It turns out I actually didn't fix my alarm clock), So that means my mom heard her alarm and fell back to sleep.

I got angry but I didn't say anything directly to my mom I just kind of did an angry moan when I was still half asleep, and she told me not to make her feel bad. She kept trying to wake me up and I told her to leave and let me go back to sleep. She finally left my room and whined that nobody loves her, so that I'll feel sorry for her, I guess.

My mom always finds a way to make things all about her, most of my life I've never felt like the child. The only person who takes care of me is me and I feel like I can't even do that to my fullest capability because of my SA. I just wish my mom would care and take initiative for me every once in a while.
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Is it too late to enrol this coming week? It sucks you missed the alarm but maybe it's not too late.
 
TreeBones

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MikeyC said:
Is it too late to enrol this coming week? It sucks you missed the alarm but maybe it's not too late.
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Yeah, my mom said this Tuesday or Wednesday we're going for sure, but she has a problem following through with things...so I guess we'll see haha. Thank you for asking.
 
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