destructoroflife
Well-known member
Another night just talking to myself about what I'm going to do with me and my future.
I can't seem to force myself to do anything, whatever it is.
People tell me to go take some classes, even if it's not a college course. What's the point?
My perspective is that everything is a joke. Why should I waste the few energy I have getting a degree just to survive?
Why can't I do something if it matters, my life is at risk, my life depends on me getting a job that will feed me.
The risks are just too high to give a damn. I just want to live, without worries.
I've been thinking the possibility of me getting cancer. I think I'd just wait to die, slowly, it'd be such a relief. Because, what's the point if I'm not gonna do nothing for myself or the "world"?
I lack it. What? I don't know, will power, motivation, the ability to be motivated?
And tomorrow I'm supossed to go talk with my "head doctor". Another day trying to save my life by "changing my perspective", yay!
I can't seem to force myself to do anything, whatever it is.
People tell me to go take some classes, even if it's not a college course. What's the point?
My perspective is that everything is a joke. Why should I waste the few energy I have getting a degree just to survive?
Why can't I do something if it matters, my life is at risk, my life depends on me getting a job that will feed me.
The risks are just too high to give a damn. I just want to live, without worries.
I've been thinking the possibility of me getting cancer. I think I'd just wait to die, slowly, it'd be such a relief. Because, what's the point if I'm not gonna do nothing for myself or the "world"?
I lack it. What? I don't know, will power, motivation, the ability to be motivated?
And tomorrow I'm supossed to go talk with my "head doctor". Another day trying to save my life by "changing my perspective", yay!