recluse
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I'm going backwards instead of forwards, my social anxiety is getting worse. I can do things like travel alone (recently come back from holiday alone) but social interaction is near impossible.
Since around February i have been in a bad mental state; Depression, anxiety, obsessive thoughts, basically living in my own head not being able to function. My work is suffering and i don't even enjoy anything anymore not even my hobbies.
I pushed myself to go with people from work for a meal and i spent the entire evening not saying much, just sitting like a dummy feeling detached. I just feel so detached from everyone, i can't find pleasure in being with people yet i yearn to feel close to people.
As i was saying i went on holiday for ten days and i could not really enjoy it much, as all i could see were people with friends, couples having fun talking and laughing etc. I felt like i was going crazy with jealousy seeing people like this. All i hear at work is people talking about their great social lives and the parties and other social stuff they have been to.
I'm just feeling really lonely and there is no use telling me i need to go out and meet people because i end up just feeling even lonelier. It seems i can't relate to anyone not even my parents. I think i am going to end up homeless when my parents eventually go and this thought scares me.
Since around February i have been in a bad mental state; Depression, anxiety, obsessive thoughts, basically living in my own head not being able to function. My work is suffering and i don't even enjoy anything anymore not even my hobbies.
I pushed myself to go with people from work for a meal and i spent the entire evening not saying much, just sitting like a dummy feeling detached. I just feel so detached from everyone, i can't find pleasure in being with people yet i yearn to feel close to people.
As i was saying i went on holiday for ten days and i could not really enjoy it much, as all i could see were people with friends, couples having fun talking and laughing etc. I felt like i was going crazy with jealousy seeing people like this. All i hear at work is people talking about their great social lives and the parties and other social stuff they have been to.
I'm just feeling really lonely and there is no use telling me i need to go out and meet people because i end up just feeling even lonelier. It seems i can't relate to anyone not even my parents. I think i am going to end up homeless when my parents eventually go and this thought scares me.