Ecclesiastes
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A little introduction for myself..
The name is Rara ( Am 22 this year, living in Singapore
(Well yeah, I'm an Asian.. hope you guys wouldn't mind that)
I love music and somehow I'm totally obsessed with Tokio Hotel. I think their lyrics are really awesome and meaningful.
Have had a pretty depressing teenage-hood I guess. I used to be really big and different from the others in my school so yeah, I've been a target for getting bullied, for my size and appearance. Then I fell into depression because of it and fears going to school. That started when I was 14, my very first panic attack looked me up.
I've never had many true friends, since most of them befriend me only to look superior when I'm beside them. When I became anorexic after my first boyfriend cheated on me I lost quite a bit of weight and these 'friends' started telling people tales about me popping pills and what not (Sad, I know!). Cried a lot for that.
All these events has molded me into someone that can barely trust anyone. And took my confidence away along with it. I couldn't bring myself to trust if anyone can be true to me, that includes my loved ones.. because of that, I lost someone really important to me.
Lots of peeps told me they haven't seen me with a genuine smile for a long time.. can't help to agree my life has been really sucky I sometimes wonder if God really prefers seeing me in pain than in joy hm..
Well yeah, that's a brief summary (wow I think its long) about me. I really hope to know more friends, whether in RL or just over the net, I've always loved having friends, I think I'm really good to my friends and never do bad things to them.. but Idk why my girl-friends just seem never willing to approach me compared to other friends.
So.. I hope I get to know really good bunch of new friends here who would love me for who I am and accept me :] It'd be really cool if we could even game together D
The name is Rara ( Am 22 this year, living in Singapore
(Well yeah, I'm an Asian.. hope you guys wouldn't mind that)
I love music and somehow I'm totally obsessed with Tokio Hotel. I think their lyrics are really awesome and meaningful.
Have had a pretty depressing teenage-hood I guess. I used to be really big and different from the others in my school so yeah, I've been a target for getting bullied, for my size and appearance. Then I fell into depression because of it and fears going to school. That started when I was 14, my very first panic attack looked me up.
I've never had many true friends, since most of them befriend me only to look superior when I'm beside them. When I became anorexic after my first boyfriend cheated on me I lost quite a bit of weight and these 'friends' started telling people tales about me popping pills and what not (Sad, I know!). Cried a lot for that.
All these events has molded me into someone that can barely trust anyone. And took my confidence away along with it. I couldn't bring myself to trust if anyone can be true to me, that includes my loved ones.. because of that, I lost someone really important to me.
Lots of peeps told me they haven't seen me with a genuine smile for a long time.. can't help to agree my life has been really sucky I sometimes wonder if God really prefers seeing me in pain than in joy hm..
Well yeah, that's a brief summary (wow I think its long) about me. I really hope to know more friends, whether in RL or just over the net, I've always loved having friends, I think I'm really good to my friends and never do bad things to them.. but Idk why my girl-friends just seem never willing to approach me compared to other friends.
So.. I hope I get to know really good bunch of new friends here who would love me for who I am and accept me :] It'd be really cool if we could even game together D