Feeling worthless
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Lonelykitsune
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yep,absolutly nothing would be different if i were never born or died.
Jake123
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If you were never born this post would have never existed and for all you know this very post could have created a quantum reaction chain of events that lead to the universe being saved!
PennyLane
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I feel like this constantly. I have zero self esteem and I always think if I don't like myself why would anyone else?
I have been taking St Johns Wort for the last month and I dont know if its a placebo effect or what but I do feel much brighter. Most of the time I literally can't stop smiling too. I'm not all cured or anything ridiculous though, but I do feel better.
So heres the bit thats been bothering me. I have been chatting a little more to people because i've been feeling happier, but even though I do, they don't seem anymore friendly. An example was my flatmate yesterday, I asked him questions about his photography I even went out of my way to look up this comp hes in online so I could tell him how good his pcs were. I was pretty happy and everything....but I feel like I didn't get much back. so it makes me thnk its not SA its just my crap personality....which in turn makes my SA worse because I'm scared of being judged.
I have been taking St Johns Wort for the last month and I dont know if its a placebo effect or what but I do feel much brighter. Most of the time I literally can't stop smiling too. I'm not all cured or anything ridiculous though, but I do feel better.
So heres the bit thats been bothering me. I have been chatting a little more to people because i've been feeling happier, but even though I do, they don't seem anymore friendly. An example was my flatmate yesterday, I asked him questions about his photography I even went out of my way to look up this comp hes in online so I could tell him how good his pcs were. I was pretty happy and everything....but I feel like I didn't get much back. so it makes me thnk its not SA its just my crap personality....which in turn makes my SA worse because I'm scared of being judged.
PennyLane
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I know what other people tell you never seems to change how you feel about yourself...but based on your posts you always seem like a seriously nice guy
IJustWantMyLifeBack
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Yes I know how this feels and I think for me it stems from the SA and not being able to do what I want in life due to Bluing and my thoughts.. I'm now exercising and taking steps to change this thinking but it's hard..
dream
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Yes!, i feel like this always:S Today, i was thinking your exact thoughts lol.
I MOSTLY think of the dam past and the stupid mistakes that changed my life and the regret and guilt i feel the pain that just won't go away! The what if ?senerios play in my head like a broken record.I would give anything to go back in time i seriously feel i ****ed my life up like i commited a murder only im the killer and that i killd my self lol.
I MOSTLY think of the dam past and the stupid mistakes that changed my life and the regret and guilt i feel the pain that just won't go away! The what if ?senerios play in my head like a broken record.I would give anything to go back in time i seriously feel i ****ed my life up like i commited a murder only im the killer and that i killd my self lol.
recluse
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I know what other people tell you never seems to change how you feel about yourself...but based on your posts you always seem like a seriously nice guy
Thanks that's sweet of you
....But i have a dark side to my personality i.e - moodiness. My mood changes all the time and when i am depressed i'm a horrible person to be with and i feel so guilty for putting my mum and dad through hell. For example when i am depressed i won't talk to anyone and i get irritable and horrible.
Sinar_Matahari
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I think that means you are a pretty decen human being. There are times when I feel completely worthless. It hurts.
Sinar_Matahari
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Thanks that's sweet of you
You can add "honest" to your good qualities list.
Sinar_Matahari
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I like your profile picture and I like your quote at the bottom. They're both kinda sexy.
LadyWench
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Meggerz88
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I know how you feel. There are times when I feel like I am completely worthless. I often find myself saying that I don't deserve anything good to happen to me. Of course, at times when I am in a more reasonable state, I know this isn't true... but it doesn't stop me from being convinced at times that I am useless. For me it is very much a self-sabotaging, self-esteem issue. I think it is a protection thing too. It gives me a reason not to get my hopes up about getting something good to have them crushed when something doesn't go my way. If I feel like I deserve bad things and I get them, I'm not so devastated...
