xtina_fan81
Well-known member
Recently Ive been thinking that I just don't understand where I went wrong and what happened for things to turn out so crap, like everything that SA has resulted in, depression etc.
I know some people have been quiet forever and have never known any different, which I dont know is better or worse than it developing over time :/
But because I wasnt always like this and i dont consider myself to have always suffered with SA, i think it started when I was 12/13. theres just the good memories all the time but in a way it just makes it hurt more because I wish I could go back to that and I know it must still be in me somewhere, i just cant find it.
I quit university in December only having started in the september, now im just at home doing nothing and havent been strong enough to get a job or try very hard, im thinking of going back to a college in Sep and try again, but im really just scared but if it goes wrong again i dont know what ill do orhow ill react cos its like one of very few options i have cus i have to do something.
Ive kinda gone off the point but does anyone else know what i mean and wonder how and why it all went so wrong and how its come to this seemingly pointless existence and endless disappointment?
I know some people have been quiet forever and have never known any different, which I dont know is better or worse than it developing over time :/
But because I wasnt always like this and i dont consider myself to have always suffered with SA, i think it started when I was 12/13. theres just the good memories all the time but in a way it just makes it hurt more because I wish I could go back to that and I know it must still be in me somewhere, i just cant find it.
I quit university in December only having started in the september, now im just at home doing nothing and havent been strong enough to get a job or try very hard, im thinking of going back to a college in Sep and try again, but im really just scared but if it goes wrong again i dont know what ill do orhow ill react cos its like one of very few options i have cus i have to do something.
Ive kinda gone off the point but does anyone else know what i mean and wonder how and why it all went so wrong and how its come to this seemingly pointless existence and endless disappointment?