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PhantomPod
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Wow, I am on youtube all the time, and I have never actually searched for social anxiety videos. I am going ot go watch some right now.
VioletTears
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I do have one but I don't know that I really want to post it here! It took me several attempts because I kept blanking out and not knowing what to say to the camera and after all that I STILL looked and sounded like a total dork in it. I used stupid search words when I uploaded it so nobody would find it except for the people it was intended for. I made it for the people on a private forum that I go to... It's a small group of women that I have "known" for years and become very close to... But I felt like whatever I wrote some of them didn't really understand why I couldn't just march forward and conquer life... It finally occured to me that maybe if people could really SEE me they would get it... and actually, they did.
In the end I was glad I did it... And it was also good practice for therapy and needing to say that crap to an actual PERSON... where I couldn't push delete and re-record. But I did get embarrassed and try to delete it later and couldn't figure out how! It hasn't gotten many veiws though so at least it has remained well hidden.
In the end I was glad I did it... And it was also good practice for therapy and needing to say that crap to an actual PERSON... where I couldn't push delete and re-record. But I did get embarrassed and try to delete it later and couldn't figure out how! It hasn't gotten many veiws though so at least it has remained well hidden.
dottie
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check out this guy's videos: http://ca.youtube.com/profile_videos?user=infernodragon02
he is incredibly courageous and has a good sense of humor even though it may be hard for most people to understand. i relate with him because even though he does not fit in, he still persists. he still goes to college and endures pressure (hell) most people could not fathom. but i can. you might, too. he talks very candidly about his anxiety attacks and near-breakdowns. he is highly intelligent and he has a really big heart. check out his videos. i am interested in what others think.
personally, i don't have the balls to post SAD videos on youtube. it's like coming out of the closet- although most people who know me in real life already know something is wrong with me on some level. i suppose i feel like the internet is the only place i do not have to deal with the intense stigma and i would like to keep it a safehaven. i really commend those who have the balls to come out on youtube.
violet, if you want to share your video via instant message i would be interested in watching. i won't tell anyone. i am a dork... beyond... so you really don't have anything to worry about. but if not, i totally understand.
anyone got links to good youtube anxiety videos? when they say "you are not alone," watching these videos kind of takes the cliche out of it and makes it feel more true.
he is incredibly courageous and has a good sense of humor even though it may be hard for most people to understand. i relate with him because even though he does not fit in, he still persists. he still goes to college and endures pressure (hell) most people could not fathom. but i can. you might, too. he talks very candidly about his anxiety attacks and near-breakdowns. he is highly intelligent and he has a really big heart. check out his videos. i am interested in what others think.
personally, i don't have the balls to post SAD videos on youtube. it's like coming out of the closet- although most people who know me in real life already know something is wrong with me on some level. i suppose i feel like the internet is the only place i do not have to deal with the intense stigma and i would like to keep it a safehaven. i really commend those who have the balls to come out on youtube.
violet, if you want to share your video via instant message i would be interested in watching. i won't tell anyone. i am a dork... beyond... so you really don't have anything to worry about. but if not, i totally understand.
anyone got links to good youtube anxiety videos? when they say "you are not alone," watching these videos kind of takes the cliche out of it and makes it feel more true.
Argamemnon
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Yes, they don't look anxious at all, plus one of them (the older guy) has a partner and kids.Lea said:
dottie
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Argamemnon said:
there are a lot of videos i watch and i wonder if these people truly have social anxiety because they come across so normal. i decide to give them the benefit of the doubt because perhaps they can be very good at covering it up. also, keep in mind that they are by themselves in front of a camera so they can block out the social anxiety and pretend like they are in front of a mirror or something. who knows?
i also watch asperger videos because sometimes i wonder if i, myself, may have it. there are a lot of self-diagnosed people out there who claim to have social phobia or aspergers but they just aren't convincing. it's like maybe they pretend to have it for attention and comments. for instance: this video i don't buy it. not even close. i think people like this who self diagnose themselves and then wave it around like a flag are a complete misrepresentation and it's not fair to people who really have it.
VioletTears
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I have often thought that people seem normal in their videos, too... And with some that's probably because they really DON'T have an actual disorder... But with others it's probably because we're not in the room with them. It's really hard to tell if someone has social anxiety based upon a video that was taken when they were in the room all alone...
From my experience, when I first started talking to the camera I was affraid OF the camera... which made me forget what I was going to say... But after forgetting stuff like 20 times and deleting it I kind of STARTED to realize that the camera wasn't that scary... Because there's a delete button... It's not like you have to share the video...
Now sharring it takes quite a lot more courage... but I actually think it's a helpful process so I would encourage people to TRY taping themselves and watching it... You don't have to upload it if you don't want to... But you might decide to risk it for the sake of maybe feeling understood... The internet is a way safer place to take risks than real life is, IMO.
Okay, so I guess I will try posting my video from June... but I probably won't leave it up because this is already scary enough... I tried uploading another one too and I think I seem a little more normal in it, but it's taking forever to upload...
Also, it's not specifically about social anxiety... It's just my crap.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yj9TpKgATzg
ETA- This is my other one... More in resonse to social anxiety, but again it's kind of just me and I don't know what diagnosis everything falls under... Right now I just have a generic diagnosis of major depression and anxiety...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fD57fpWg-Sg
From my experience, when I first started talking to the camera I was affraid OF the camera... which made me forget what I was going to say... But after forgetting stuff like 20 times and deleting it I kind of STARTED to realize that the camera wasn't that scary... Because there's a delete button... It's not like you have to share the video...
Now sharring it takes quite a lot more courage... but I actually think it's a helpful process so I would encourage people to TRY taping themselves and watching it... You don't have to upload it if you don't want to... But you might decide to risk it for the sake of maybe feeling understood... The internet is a way safer place to take risks than real life is, IMO.
Okay, so I guess I will try posting my video from June... but I probably won't leave it up because this is already scary enough... I tried uploading another one too and I think I seem a little more normal in it, but it's taking forever to upload...
Also, it's not specifically about social anxiety... It's just my crap.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yj9TpKgATzg
ETA- This is my other one... More in resonse to social anxiety, but again it's kind of just me and I don't know what diagnosis everything falls under... Right now I just have a generic diagnosis of major depression and anxiety...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fD57fpWg-Sg
dottie
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hey violet, thanks for sharing your video! you are very brave to post it here so i commend you. i relate with a lot of things you said, especially how ordinary things that most people can do easily takes so much out of you. that is exactly it. how is the therapist so far?
VioletTears
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Thanks, Dottie... Ummmm... I want to say something nice about therapy but I guess I'm just not there yet... But who knows, it could start helping. The same goes for medication... But I don't want to talk people out of those things because they do really help some people... I was hoping for better effects from the meds but I knew therapy would take time because this has been so lifelong for me and I waited way too long to get help...
proudmummy
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I could never do that...
I'd get scared that someone I know will see it, as I know i'd get ripped for it.
I'd get scared that someone I know will see it, as I know i'd get ripped for it.
Dave_McFadden
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Well, all I have to say is that you are a braver soul than I. It's good that you're focusing on communicating your feelings to people verbally, it's a lot healthier than cutting. Even if you have to say things over and over again 20 times in front of the camera. Maybe it's actually better that you have to do repeat it that much, so that it helps you pick out the best way to phrase things. Plus, the more words you have for your feelings, the less likely you are to be misinterepreted or convinced that you feel a certain way when you don't. Plus, you can probably give the therapist better answers.
sleepysparrow
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VioletTears said:
VioletTears, you are so brave and an inspiration to me. I honestly feel so similar to what you feel, at times it was like a reflection of myself. When you were talking about elementary school and your time with other kids, I have felt the same from such a young age, and it has been so hard to grow up feeling so alone. Unlike you, I was never diagnosed when I was young, and no one ever talked to me about my feelings, or helped me with my problems, so I was extremely depressed throughout my life thinking that I would never connect with anyone, and that no one would ever understand me. I have a son like you do and i'm sure we feel the same alot of the time, I wish that you and I could meet in person because I feel like we have so much in common and could help each other so much. I would love to have a friend like you. Do you use msn? I don't always go online, i'm sometimes afraid of using it because I don't know what to say, but I would love to get to know you because I think you are a really brave person, and talking about your feelings so openly like that lets others know they aren't alone, because lots of people feel the way you do.
kuhtreen
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I post videos on youtube, but not about social anxiety...they're just videos of me singing and playing guitar. As long as I don't have to talk on camera, I'm okay with it, although I do naturally feel self concious anyway.
I'm paranoid that people who watch me on youtube will somehow find me on here. I don't want them to know my secret! They all believe I am normal, but little do they know....
I'm paranoid that people who watch me on youtube will somehow find me on here. I don't want them to know my secret! They all believe I am normal, but little do they know....
VioletTears
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SleepySparrow, I send you a pm
Kuhtreen, that's so cool that you sing and play guitar. I would love to see you!
Kuhtreen, that's so cool that you sing and play guitar. I would love to see you!