I have been googling a way to destroy it, and I don't expect anyone to understand why I am looking for it.. Just not finding any results either.. I'd hit my own throat if I didn't think it would be suicide.. I think I am going to scream for an extended period of time when my throat is VERY dry and nobody is home.. I know that will at least damage it.. Damage over time on anything only gets worse, right?
I understand why. But I hate to think of you hurting yourself. The only way that screaming could permanently damage your vocal chords is if you did it for hours almost every night for years. It would be very painful, and might eventually heal itself anyway (the body is amazingly resilient like that). There has to be a better way, though I don't know what that is.