Thank you everybody . I some how knew the answer was going to be Job. I still feel it not easy working without a car. All them dangerous obstacles that lays in your way when walking like dealing with a Killer attack dog , getting hit by a car or even dying from exhaution . those thoughts are just me going crazy again. fear has always been a big problem in my life. Sometime finding the answer is not helpful because it easyer said than done. In these times you have no choice but to just quit over thinking and give yourself a big push out the door it not always going to be a full 100% decided in your mind sometime, well alot of time your going to have to act on 20% or even 1% decided in your mind. Just try your best to keep thinking happy thoughts.