Lou-s-Darkness
Well-known member
I don't really know how to start, so bear with me...
Since January I've been feeling incredibly depressed and my anxiety is worsening. For a while I thought I was doing alright, because I was actually talking to a few classmates and they liked talking to me. So I felt like I was getting things on track. I was doing good in college I was passionate and tried my hardest not to let any negativity stain my optimism. But this winter and in this very moment I feel like everything just went downhill. Who am I kidding, no one actually talks to me out of class and everybody just leaves me...they literally act like I never existed. Like there's no evidence of me ever being alive. I want to be happy and live my dreams. I want to travel and continue studying in another country just to get ideas and get a nice education but no one supports the decisions I make.
There is constant tension between me and my mom. She hates everything I do and it makes my mood even worse. It makes me unable to continue and be productive. She's one of the main causes for my SAD/depression and I just feel like giving up. I can't even make friends on this forum. I have no friends and no family to turn to for support. I just feel so lost! It's incredibly painful and I just wish I had someone to turn to.
I hate complaining, but I had to let this out...I need to rant every once in a while or I'll lose it if I keep everything bottled up.I'm just really not feeling well...I can't stand this aching.
Thoughts/ideas?
Since January I've been feeling incredibly depressed and my anxiety is worsening. For a while I thought I was doing alright, because I was actually talking to a few classmates and they liked talking to me. So I felt like I was getting things on track. I was doing good in college I was passionate and tried my hardest not to let any negativity stain my optimism. But this winter and in this very moment I feel like everything just went downhill. Who am I kidding, no one actually talks to me out of class and everybody just leaves me...they literally act like I never existed. Like there's no evidence of me ever being alive. I want to be happy and live my dreams. I want to travel and continue studying in another country just to get ideas and get a nice education but no one supports the decisions I make.
There is constant tension between me and my mom. She hates everything I do and it makes my mood even worse. It makes me unable to continue and be productive. She's one of the main causes for my SAD/depression and I just feel like giving up. I can't even make friends on this forum. I have no friends and no family to turn to for support. I just feel so lost! It's incredibly painful and I just wish I had someone to turn to.
I hate complaining, but I had to let this out...I need to rant every once in a while or I'll lose it if I keep everything bottled up.I'm just really not feeling well...I can't stand this aching.
Thoughts/ideas?