froghat
Well-known member
I'm in a serious rut right now. I can't find a decent paying job that I feel comfortable working at and somewhat enjoy. My last two jobs combined lasted about 2 months. The first one I tried was an overnight clerk at a hotel. I thought, "This will be perfect for me, I'll check a few old business guys in and the rest of the time I can relax and work by myself". Of course that was way off. Plenty of people and groups check in at night and the anxiety is bad because you never know who's gonna walk through the doors. I get real nervous if a group of people are watching waiting for me to check them in. My next job was a route driver for a vending company. The driving part was fine and some of the places I stocked at were ok, but we stocked at alot of big warehouse lunch room and boy was that a SA nightmare. I would have to stock for about an hour at each of these places. Usually around 20-30 people at lunch tables just eating and staring at you the whole time. It reminded me of the hell that was high school. I was so paranoid and felt trapped in there. Everywhere I went, people were surrounding me. I'm very paranoid like that. Anyways, I was still training after 1 month there with another route driver, but I couldn't take it anymore. Just quit. I really want a job, I'm not lazy or anything, but I f'ing suck socially! It seems every job I get, I get along with a few people, but the majoirty of peole it's always awkward. Dunno WTF to do now? Anyone have any suggestions? What do you guys do?