I IN NO WAY AM THINKING OF SUICIDE. AND I WISH ALOT OF PEOPLE IN HERE WERE NOT ASWELL. I FEEL THAT TAKING YOUR LIFE IS JUST A WAY OF LETTING "THEM" WIN. BUT I USUALLY FIND MYSELF THINKING ABOUT WHAT MY FUNERAL WOULD BE LIKE, AND WHAT I WANT PEOPLE TO REMEMBER ME BY. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT I WANT...