Hottie
Well-known member
Ohhhh s**t!!
I just said yes to attend something that will create HUGE anxiety for me. I will have to sit in a class with other volunteers *ahhhhh* i havnt sat in a class in a year. I suppose it will be good for me if im thinking of going back to college though
*silently screaming inside*.
The topic couldnt hit any closer to home for me. I believe it will be very benificial for me, with where i am volunteering at the moment, but it is starting to panic me already.It is positive step for me. I didnt have to go to the awareness programme, but i am...
All i know is i want a back seat!! Oh s**t, what if its in a circle?!! Im not going to think of that now....
But i had good plans/intentions today to go down to the shopping centre to get links off my bracelet and watch. Im in no mood to go down now but i have to go to sign on in the Social Welfare(i have to do this once a month so i can get my job seekers allowence). Also i am ment to go for a a swim with my best friend later this evening and i really just want to curl up into a ball and hide under my covers
I woke up this morning to my house phine ringing and ringing and ringing. When i eventully got up to answer it, it was my sisters guidence counsellor looking for my dad. On the phone she said "i cannot get thru to your dad and i need to speak to him urgently". Now my sister has got some problems of her own and she is vunurable.
Every single thought went thru my head. I didnt know what had happened so i rang back the school to ease my mind from worries. The guidence counsellor had told me that "she is fine".
So then my dad rang me and told e what happened. Apparently my sister had expressed suicidel thoughts last night to her friend on the phone. She said she had a rope and was going to hang herself. I dont know how her guidence counselloer found out but they have a a good way of finding out info!
Not her too. Im just glad that her thoughts were found out so now we can help her. But she is the type of person that has stigma for counseling/therapy, so it will be really difficult to get her to go.
How much of a considence is it that i just said yes to going to a suicide awareness programme, and my sister expressing these thoughts. This topic goes through my mind everyday. I dont want my sis to be the same as it is scary and lonely.
My lil sister is my heart. If anything happened to her i dont know what i would do. I have always been there for her, acting like a mother to her (as hers was not a mother). I love her to bits and i cant wait till she gets home so i can give her a BIG HUG and tell her i love her. I am starting to tear up at the moment because i just love her so much.
Now i dont want to go out, but i have to... Maybe it will do me good to get out of the house and away from constant worry.
I just said yes to attend something that will create HUGE anxiety for me. I will have to sit in a class with other volunteers *ahhhhh* i havnt sat in a class in a year. I suppose it will be good for me if im thinking of going back to college though
*silently screaming inside*.
The topic couldnt hit any closer to home for me. I believe it will be very benificial for me, with where i am volunteering at the moment, but it is starting to panic me already.It is positive step for me. I didnt have to go to the awareness programme, but i am...
All i know is i want a back seat!! Oh s**t, what if its in a circle?!! Im not going to think of that now....
But i had good plans/intentions today to go down to the shopping centre to get links off my bracelet and watch. Im in no mood to go down now but i have to go to sign on in the Social Welfare(i have to do this once a month so i can get my job seekers allowence). Also i am ment to go for a a swim with my best friend later this evening and i really just want to curl up into a ball and hide under my covers
I woke up this morning to my house phine ringing and ringing and ringing. When i eventully got up to answer it, it was my sisters guidence counsellor looking for my dad. On the phone she said "i cannot get thru to your dad and i need to speak to him urgently". Now my sister has got some problems of her own and she is vunurable.
Every single thought went thru my head. I didnt know what had happened so i rang back the school to ease my mind from worries. The guidence counsellor had told me that "she is fine".
So then my dad rang me and told e what happened. Apparently my sister had expressed suicidel thoughts last night to her friend on the phone. She said she had a rope and was going to hang herself. I dont know how her guidence counselloer found out but they have a a good way of finding out info!
Not her too. Im just glad that her thoughts were found out so now we can help her. But she is the type of person that has stigma for counseling/therapy, so it will be really difficult to get her to go.
How much of a considence is it that i just said yes to going to a suicide awareness programme, and my sister expressing these thoughts. This topic goes through my mind everyday. I dont want my sis to be the same as it is scary and lonely.
My lil sister is my heart. If anything happened to her i dont know what i would do. I have always been there for her, acting like a mother to her (as hers was not a mother). I love her to bits and i cant wait till she gets home so i can give her a BIG HUG and tell her i love her. I am starting to tear up at the moment because i just love her so much.
Now i dont want to go out, but i have to... Maybe it will do me good to get out of the house and away from constant worry.