You know, as dysfunctional as I am, I could've turned out much worse. I realize I come across as a regular dude but I have underlying issues of varying degrees that I don't talk of a whole lot. Maybe I should? Anyway, see, I was raised about 30 miles or so from where I live now and I was a decent kid. I threw rocks at school busses and other various kid stuff there but when I was 14, in 1999, my mom remarried and moved us here because of my new step dad's job. I didn't have a good relationship with her and wanted to stay with my grandparents but it didn't happen. So as soon as we unpacked, I committed my first crime within days. At my new school I mocked teachers and got in the face of authority. Within a few weeks I was hangin' with the troublemakers and we roamed the town after school, sometimes until daylight the next day vandalizing and stealing stuff. All simply because I was throwing a tantrum, I see that in retrospect, 15 years later, but at the time I figured the whole world was to blame- and they were gonna pay! God, this is so embarrassing. But I have to get it out there. We lived in a dilapidated house on the side of town that was falling apart. At night, every night, I'd be out somewhere walking the town looking for things to destroy or steal. I'd slash tires on random cars in parking lots. I threw bricks through the windows of abandoned houses, or take a couple cans of spray paint and paint junk all over the walls. By that winter, after it turned 2000, when the whole Y2K thing didn't happen, I had some little punk friends that came along doing the above things and we were having fun. We broke into cars at car dealerships and stole CD players and stuff to sell them or put them in our own vehicles (I had a car in 99 but wasn't old enough to legally drive it even though I drove it everywhere). Between my mom trying to be the perfect little wife for her new douche bag husband and the fact that I couldn't stand him or his stupid sons, I couldn't stand being the outcast kid that didn't wanna live in the run down house where the basement filled up with water when it rained and there wasn't any heat upstairs in my bedroom until I stole a heater to plug in in my bedroom that first winter. Yeah, the winter when 1999 turned into 2000 was a cold one here in that old run down house. I made it though. It often helped me keep warm when I'd sneak a neighbor girl who was a few years older than me into my room every night. Didn't pay much attention to the drafty cold those nights. It's hard to fit two people in a one person sleeping bag. Anyway, between my stealing and vandalizing and just punk kid antics finally got me caught by the cops. They couldn't pin anything on me though and I kept at it. Several times I was caught by cops and taken home or taken to the jail to be picked up by my mom, and as soon as we were home I'd go right back to doing whatever I wanted. She was abusive before she remarried and for a few years she didn't do it any more because she was trying to make him think she was some kind of good person or something. So she pretty much backed off all together and I just did whatever. I hate that I did that stuff but I can't change it now. The only good that became of it was later when I straightened up and got a job as a fireman, sometimes we'd come to a locked door and someone on the other side needed help, so I'd use my old self taught knowledge of breaking and entering to get inside to get people out. Maybe that was fate. I guess it was a funny sight for onlookers to see a fireman use a knife to slip the lock on a home door on a first response call out. (if you're going to fall and not be able to get up for some reason, please don't lock your door so the emergency people can get inside) Anyway. Felt like getting some of that out there. After a year or so I started acting better and more upstanding. So if anybody is mad at the world and feels like doing something despicable just to spite authority, P.M. me, i'll talk you out of it.