After leaving the funeral service thing for my cousin today, I came away feeling very thankful for my three healthy, beautiful, children and my healthy, beautiful, wife. I'm so very lucky mere words cannot describe it. I feel so bad for my great aunt, losing her child. I don't ever want to experience that. I can't imagine what she is going through. At the same time it makes me feel so lucky to have my wife and kids but it scares me, the thoughts of losing one of them. I love them more than life itself, and I would protect them to my dying breath. After we came home all I could do is get all three kids on my lap and hold them, hoping I never lose any of them. They are my life.
On a lighter note, after seeing a neighbor girl in passing a few times and making small talk, I saw her the other day and she started fishing for compliments (saying she needs to be prettier, calling herself ugly, etc.). So, being the flirt I am in person, I gave her some compliments, in a light hearted way, and half joking. Then she handed me a piece of paper with her phone number on it and a picture of her. She might be 18,... maybe. And I won't call her, I didn't talk to her with that being my goal at all. Don't get me wrong she is pretty, and friendly. But she is way too young and still lives with her parents. Not to mention, I'm happily married. If I was single, sure, I'd call her. Maybe she just wants to be friends? I can do that, to a certain extent. In person I'm told that I flirt but I don't mean anything by it, I just do it. She waves at me every day when I leave for work and she brought me a drink one day in the summer when I was cutting down some trees but I figured she was just outgoing, especially when she stood around making small talk for the better part of an hour. Every now and then when I'm outside she'll walk over and just want to talk, about growing up and relationships and jobs, nothing at all really. But this has me puzzled, like... does she just want to be buddies and give me a picture of her or does she want more? I know what I believe she wants but why? At first I thought she wanted to hook up but now I'm not sure, maybe she really didn't mean anything by it. Ah, who knows? Opinions, anyone?