You know, it might not seem it but everyone has a battle going on in their head, others just seem to not let it show. No one has ever been able to tell there was anything wrong with me or that my mind was having a million battles going on. Heck my mind is a battlefield and it declares war on one thought every single second but u just have to get on with it the best you can.
Man on the Hill: I recently lived at home all my life until 25 then moved out, I am finding it very very hard and I have had to do so much outside my comfort zone that now it's getting easier. Honestly as much as it fukin kills you as a person with these issues you have to do them or you never get over them. In the past few months I have done things I would never dream of doing, they were things I physically and mentally thought were impossible but you know what...those were just THOUGHTS, one bad THOUGHT and by pushing myself to do them I eliminated this false belief that I can't do it, when in reality I can, and anyone with these issues can! Sometimes you just have no choice, it's do or die. When you move out you realise you have no one to rely on so it is survive or fail and you will be surprised how much you do when you have no choice but to do them.
"I always feel like EVERYBODY is stareing at me and watching me for some reason, but actually nobody really is and im no different from anybody else"
EXACTLY TRUE, and almost EVERYONE thinks like this. I have a massive anxiety about eating in front of people and I just started a job where I have to eat in a staff room and I constantly feel like people are looking and stuff, but you know what? They never are. I've sneakily looked about the whole room and everyone has their head in a book / magazine or phone. No one actually cares about us, as much as we think they are looking, they are not and are too busy in their own head to realise about us. No one wants these thoughts, even people who are 'normal' get slight anxiety about people staring at them and what not.
To the OP, worry is always going to happen but it doesn't have to run your life. I constantly worry, I am very worried right now but just got to get on with it and I supposed when people say "don't worry so much" they are just trying to be nice and calm you down a bit (which can sometimes spiral out of control and make it worse) BUT it's also for themselves, I have often said don't worry to people in order to show them it's not as bad as they think while also reassuring myself. It comforts me and them and every single time I have worried about something I always end up coming out of whatever it was, let's say an interview and then I get thoughts in my head of "WAS THAT IT!!! seriously what was I worried about?"
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