lifesnotfair
Well-known member
I have suffered from Mental Illness in greater than 20 years. I am pretty sure i have some aspect of autism considering my behaviors. Of course nobody has ever diagnosed me so who knows.. I have huge anxiety problems, major depression, OCD. I have seen doctors, counsellors, psychiatrists, psychologists, and absolutely nothing has done anything to relieve my stress, anxiety or depression. I keep telling people my problems, but the more and more i tell them, the more i close up. Because from experience, talking to people that are trained to listen to problems has done nothing from me. The medications that i have been taking have changed me physically, and have caused some major problems recently. When your doctor tells you that the benefits outweigh the negative side effects, you think you would trust them to make the right decisions. It turned out to be another falsehood.
I have been through every source of humiliation, bullying, and harassment even up to months ago. I can't even leave my house now because i am extremely paranoid, and i can't deal with people anymore. In the matter of fact i have never been able to fit in socially. So i don't know how to deal with people or some real life events in a proper way. I have so many problems, and medications aren't really helping. Its so bad that I can't work, or do any sort of function other than basic things.
I know this seems like a rant, and unstructured, I am just tired...I really don't have a place in this world anymore..
I have been through every source of humiliation, bullying, and harassment even up to months ago. I can't even leave my house now because i am extremely paranoid, and i can't deal with people anymore. In the matter of fact i have never been able to fit in socially. So i don't know how to deal with people or some real life events in a proper way. I have so many problems, and medications aren't really helping. Its so bad that I can't work, or do any sort of function other than basic things.
I know this seems like a rant, and unstructured, I am just tired...I really don't have a place in this world anymore..