recluse
Well-known member
This is something which has been bothering me for so long, but it's only really re-started since just after Christmas. I've had this problem for many years on and off, but it seems to get worse when i am anxious, depressed, or tired. Anyway here goes.
Say i am listening to the radio and a song comes on i get the overwhelming urge to go through a list in my mind, or even out aloud (when alone in the car) other songs by the same artist/band. It's as if i feel the need to know trivia about everything, and i'll then get stuck in loop thinking about these songs over and over and i get irritated if i think i've missed out a detail from the song like the right lyrics, melody etc. The same goes when i am watching a film and then i'll go through a list in my mind of films an actor from the film has been in. Another example is i'll think of countries and i'll name cities from that country in my head.
I know that i don't need to do these compulsions but i feel i can't resist. It's got so bad over the past few weeks that i've got to the stage of writing lists on paper.
It's as if my life depends on knowing everything. I feel very anxious and unable to enjoy anything.
Oh and also i get obsessed with people, like memorizing their faces and what they said to me. In particular a love interest of mine who pretty much made it clear a year ago that she only sees me as an 'aqquaintance' i can't stop thinking about her, and i have to visualize what she looks like in my head or i feel i will go crazy. To begin with i accepted the fact that she does not see me in a romantic way and i felt great being so apathetic..I felt care-free so why since i saw her at easter have i been so obsessed with her?
Say i am listening to the radio and a song comes on i get the overwhelming urge to go through a list in my mind, or even out aloud (when alone in the car) other songs by the same artist/band. It's as if i feel the need to know trivia about everything, and i'll then get stuck in loop thinking about these songs over and over and i get irritated if i think i've missed out a detail from the song like the right lyrics, melody etc. The same goes when i am watching a film and then i'll go through a list in my mind of films an actor from the film has been in. Another example is i'll think of countries and i'll name cities from that country in my head.
I know that i don't need to do these compulsions but i feel i can't resist. It's got so bad over the past few weeks that i've got to the stage of writing lists on paper.
It's as if my life depends on knowing everything. I feel very anxious and unable to enjoy anything.
Oh and also i get obsessed with people, like memorizing their faces and what they said to me. In particular a love interest of mine who pretty much made it clear a year ago that she only sees me as an 'aqquaintance' i can't stop thinking about her, and i have to visualize what she looks like in my head or i feel i will go crazy. To begin with i accepted the fact that she does not see me in a romantic way and i felt great being so apathetic..I felt care-free so why since i saw her at easter have i been so obsessed with her?