D@rwin_dude
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Is it just me or does this SA or SP or whatever anyone wants to call it absolutely F>K>N SUCK!!!!
My personal story is irrelevant...what I want to say is I've used a number of techniques and approaches and changed how I feel so many times. I've then ventured back out into the world and been social and I ALWAYS F>K>N END UP BACK WHERE I F>K>N STARTED!!!
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It's so damn frustrating...I mean it's like...I have social anxiety or rather I 'do' social anxiety...I respond to social situations with anxiety. Then I do something...juggling balls, EFT...various NLP processes and change my response to social situations...I gradually expose myself to more and more situations and things begin to go ok and I feel more confident, self-respect and hope that the future really might be ok...
And then I get triggered off by something...someone important asks me to come to a party, New Year's or Christmas or I see someone that I went to high school with and it triggers off the old response and if I can't change it within a week I can't even speak to my Mum or Dad on the phone...
And then I have all these committments. I've been hanging out with friends a fair bit, playing sport with the same teams each week, been talkative with ppl at work etc. AND NOW I CAN"T BE AROUND ANYONE!!! That is so difficult to deal with I wish I had a handgun and could just end it!!!!
Anyone else experienced this?? I'm talking major differences in how you feel and act around others for weeks and months and then slipping back into being totally stuck and unable to speak and look people in the eye??? It's hell on earth...
And then I wonder...is it better to change for a short time than not change at all??
SORRY ABOUT THE RANT ANYONE WHO READS THIS!!!
I'm just letting off steam :s
My personal story is irrelevant...what I want to say is I've used a number of techniques and approaches and changed how I feel so many times. I've then ventured back out into the world and been social and I ALWAYS F>K>N END UP BACK WHERE I F>K>N STARTED!!!
It's so damn frustrating...I mean it's like...I have social anxiety or rather I 'do' social anxiety...I respond to social situations with anxiety. Then I do something...juggling balls, EFT...various NLP processes and change my response to social situations...I gradually expose myself to more and more situations and things begin to go ok and I feel more confident, self-respect and hope that the future really might be ok...
And then I get triggered off by something...someone important asks me to come to a party, New Year's or Christmas or I see someone that I went to high school with and it triggers off the old response and if I can't change it within a week I can't even speak to my Mum or Dad on the phone...
And then I have all these committments. I've been hanging out with friends a fair bit, playing sport with the same teams each week, been talkative with ppl at work etc. AND NOW I CAN"T BE AROUND ANYONE!!! That is so difficult to deal with I wish I had a handgun and could just end it!!!!
Anyone else experienced this?? I'm talking major differences in how you feel and act around others for weeks and months and then slipping back into being totally stuck and unable to speak and look people in the eye??? It's hell on earth...
And then I wonder...is it better to change for a short time than not change at all??
SORRY ABOUT THE RANT ANYONE WHO READS THIS!!!
I'm just letting off steam :s