I'm horrible at maintaining long-term relationships. I'm tired of having people coming into my life, make my days special and then leave. As you can see in the equation in my title, I'm an extremely shy person and socially awkward. (This equation does not apply to everyone)I have people that I get along with in school but I don't regard them as my friends because they don't accept me for who I am. I accept our differences but they can't accept mine. I used to try so hard to fit in but I realized that this is ME and I'm not going to change myself to please someone else. I can't expect them to understand either. They just keep pointing out that I'm too shy
I hate myself for being this way and it keeps on happening to me over and over again in both real life and people I talk to on the Internet. I want to talk to someone who I can relate to but it feels like I'm searching and trying for so long only to come back empty-handed. They say that sometimes you have to be your own best friend.
I went ice-skating. Go to the cinemas. Walk around town. All by myself. I wish that someone else is there with me too. I feel empty spending so much time with myself. I wish I was more outgoing but that's not who I am. Whenever I receive a Whatsapp notification, it's got to be one of my friends or someone in my class who needs my help. All I need is one friend(two would be good too). I'm not going to type out that cliche line "Is that too much for me to ask for" but I honestly hope that I could stop being so shy, go out there and meet people who I can truly call my friend. We only get older each day and I want my time to be spent meaningfully with people who genuinely care about me and not because they feel obligated to show their concern. mg:
(If anyone wants to talk, do PM me. I don't have a social life so I'm always here on the Internet:thinking
I hate myself for being this way and it keeps on happening to me over and over again in both real life and people I talk to on the Internet. I want to talk to someone who I can relate to but it feels like I'm searching and trying for so long only to come back empty-handed. They say that sometimes you have to be your own best friend.
I went ice-skating. Go to the cinemas. Walk around town. All by myself. I wish that someone else is there with me too. I feel empty spending so much time with myself. I wish I was more outgoing but that's not who I am. Whenever I receive a Whatsapp notification, it's got to be one of my friends or someone in my class who needs my help. All I need is one friend(two would be good too). I'm not going to type out that cliche line "Is that too much for me to ask for" but I honestly hope that I could stop being so shy, go out there and meet people who I can truly call my friend. We only get older each day and I want my time to be spent meaningfully with people who genuinely care about me and not because they feel obligated to show their concern. mg:
(If anyone wants to talk, do PM me. I don't have a social life so I'm always here on the Internet:thinking