Newtype
Well-known member
I've been doing some thinking and I wonder if there's a link between SA and how much school is such a struggle for me. I'm not talking about interacting with others, I'm talking about performing well in tests and being able to handle all the workload.
I've noticed that school is so stressful for me because I always compare myself to others. Every time it's the same. As soon as a new semester starts, I become a big ball of stress and it ends when the semester ends. I think it might be because of SA. When I'm at school, I feel stupid. I feel like I don't belong there. I compare myself to others because in my mind everyone is better than me. I believe in that illusion so much that I get really stressed and can't cope with it, therefore I end up being depressed, undisciplined, pensive and in the end I'm always struggling to get things done. Every day for me is like going to war. I actually failed some classes in the past because of this. Also, I often have nightmares about school, at least once a week. I keep destroying myself in everything that I do.
I don't really know what else to say. Is there anyone else who's like this? What do you guys think?
I've noticed that school is so stressful for me because I always compare myself to others. Every time it's the same. As soon as a new semester starts, I become a big ball of stress and it ends when the semester ends. I think it might be because of SA. When I'm at school, I feel stupid. I feel like I don't belong there. I compare myself to others because in my mind everyone is better than me. I believe in that illusion so much that I get really stressed and can't cope with it, therefore I end up being depressed, undisciplined, pensive and in the end I'm always struggling to get things done. Every day for me is like going to war. I actually failed some classes in the past because of this. Also, I often have nightmares about school, at least once a week. I keep destroying myself in everything that I do.
I don't really know what else to say. Is there anyone else who's like this? What do you guys think?