You struck a chord with me.
Each job loss is either cos you don't like it and leave, or your boss decides to fire you. Just the same of either way for a partner.
It's a big all time low. I praise you for deciding. It's an emotional mix of success and failure. I've gone from one position to the next
My entire world is based on people who reject me. I think you're doing better.
Only two times when I've had to go now (temporarily) is because my brother is dying. Same for my mother happened, about seven years later. It's hard to convince someone it's true - they saw SA and though I was lying to take a break. I went back.
There's only one time when I chose to quit, which was the peak of my career. I went through 3 rounds of redundancy - all in a room - about 4 in each group. I sat there; we were told they had to be let go. Months between. All three teams were fired. I was the one person left, because they needed me. My boss quit for something new, advising me to do so, which the other heads said - take voluntary redundancy. I was put under new management, which I hated. Within a few weeks, I was told that I set a prime business customer not to bill. I didn't do that. Why would anyone do that? They thought the customer, or someone else, offered me a payment to deactivate the account, to save them money! Meetings about it. I was suspended - 'gardening leave' for month, on full salary! I found a new girlfriend. I felt on top of the world! But wound up on why they did this to me. Time went by. Only right now, for the first time, looking back, I think what I did wrong (they never mentioned, and I was not aware of my SA at all) was never taking holiday; I had nobody to go with. My best and longest girlfriend left me when I took on this great job. It left me in a bit of a mess, but didn't reveal it. This accusation of stopping billing was ridiculous! It didn't happen! I checked! Then I was denied access while suspended. It came to a final meeting, expecting being laid off. It was an imaginary event, with no evidence. I think the reason was purely personal - SA related, while I had no idea at the time. The day before this final meeting, I felt superior to these idiots. I went to the HR office for the first time for months, and gave my notice of leaving. I wanted to, because I felt valuable to them. I couldn't stomach the possibility of being laid off.
I felt weird and sad.
Ever since, my world of finding new jobs has left me in a deep ravine of misery, I think based on this event, and all due to the girl who left me by myself. I've struggled through new partners, and brief jobs which don't last. I never quit. Only that once.
I'll never give up.
When she moved out, to a place nearby, my emotional reaction hit the floor, seeking counselling, not knowing what to expect, but I was telling myself everything will go downhill. I was right. I didn't find this website until... 8 years later
My efforts since have proved fruitful, earning money and finding the right companionship in girls, but everything leads to rejection. Nothing & nobody today
What kind of work will you be doing?
