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: I dunno what to say. ..thanks guys
. I know its silly to get hung up on looks. Its not even looking good or bad that gets to me. Its looking different it messes with me. Im starting that morph again under new meds and Im just dreading the next bit where I look like someone else not me. I documented it in my journal before. I dont think its vanity so much as an identity issue. Sometimes I like that I can be invisible at times and walk right past people I choose to avoid...but afterward it makes me sad the fact that I lose my physical identity from time to time...its disorientating.
Weirdy will you honour us again with your loveliness?
I'm probably off-base with this, but it sounds to me like you want to be noticed by those in your past. You might physically say and act like you don't want to be noticed, but your subconscious wants the opposite. Well, you remedy that, make your presence blaringly obvious; approach them and ask them if they remember who you are. If they don't, then remind them; some people may not remember you even then, but don't let it get to you. As for yourself, remember that "Jewel" isn't determined by whatever appearance she has on the outside, but who she is on the inside. Cultivate eyes that can see beyond the physical plane. Besides, you look fine (although it's kinda late saying this); when I look at you, I'm reminded of my 7th grade Math teacher who I had a crush on (which is off-topic).
Now, I think it would be nice to see Weirdy's real-life persona as well. So, please Weirdy, would you post your picture for me and everyone else who haven't seen you yet
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