A1621
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Hey all ..
So, I'll get right to it. 3 years ago I met this girl online. We talk almost everyday through video chat and we get along great .. always have. After about 2 years we decided to meet. She had told me once a long time ago that she is shy but I didn't think anything of it .. I thought it was cute. She didn't think it was cute though and at the time, I brushed it off as a non-issue. Thought she meant she'd be a little quiet for the first 30 minutes and then we'd be just like we are online.
Eventually we did meet. The first day was electric! It was so exciting, seeing each other face to face after looking into the webcam for over 2 years .. we were finally, "real" to each other. But the next few days were awful. Looking back I realize now that anytime we were with her friends, with her mom or in public we got along great, just as we did online. But when we found ourselves alone, she got quiet and didn't feel like doing anything. Just wanted to sit and watch TV or something. I was confused and guess I was upset for coming all that way and she didn't want to do anything. (I'm in the US and she lives in Europe so yeah, it was a big deal, us meeting.) We ended up fighting a lot and it was just ugly.
After I came home and we started on Skype again everything was fine. Now she feels really bad about it. She said that she doesn't know why she can't be herself around me and for that reason she doesn't think we should meet again. She said she believes she ruined my vacation and cannot promise that if we meet again she'll be any different.
At first, part of me thought that maybe she just doesn't like me. But I know that's not true. Then I remembered what she said about being shy. I always thought that shy meant a little bit quiet and cute until you get used to somebody new. But now I'm learning it might go even deeper than that and I have to wonder if what I experienced was a deeper level of shyness, one that maybe she isn't aware of since she couldn't explain why she couldn't be herself around me in person, but she can online.
She told me once that we have something that people who live a lifetime together don't always find. That we get along so well. She also said that she feels good when she's with me (online) and for her that's the most important thing. We do have something good together and I really do wanna go see her again. I just I need some help understanding I guess .. how best to communicate with her.
So, does this sound like shyness? And if so, how can I be better with/for her? Not to brag but, I feel I'm very empathetic, understanding, compassionate and, I listen pretty well. I just didn't realize it before .. thought maybe she was blowing me off or something. But just the other day we talked about it again and .. it's like she's afraid to get together again because she's worried she'll act the same and ruin things for me. I want to reassure her without drawing attention to it .. like saying, "Hunny, I know you're shy but it's okay." That will likely just make her more uncomfortable .. feel like I look at her like she has some disease and now I'm gonna treat her differently. Maybe she will be/act the same .. but I have changed. Guess what I'm also asking for is any insight that might help me better communicate with her .. online now about us potentially getting together again and, after we meet.
Thanks everyone .. for listening and for anything you have to comment on. I really appreciate it.
~ John
So, I'll get right to it. 3 years ago I met this girl online. We talk almost everyday through video chat and we get along great .. always have. After about 2 years we decided to meet. She had told me once a long time ago that she is shy but I didn't think anything of it .. I thought it was cute. She didn't think it was cute though and at the time, I brushed it off as a non-issue. Thought she meant she'd be a little quiet for the first 30 minutes and then we'd be just like we are online.
Eventually we did meet. The first day was electric! It was so exciting, seeing each other face to face after looking into the webcam for over 2 years .. we were finally, "real" to each other. But the next few days were awful. Looking back I realize now that anytime we were with her friends, with her mom or in public we got along great, just as we did online. But when we found ourselves alone, she got quiet and didn't feel like doing anything. Just wanted to sit and watch TV or something. I was confused and guess I was upset for coming all that way and she didn't want to do anything. (I'm in the US and she lives in Europe so yeah, it was a big deal, us meeting.) We ended up fighting a lot and it was just ugly.
After I came home and we started on Skype again everything was fine. Now she feels really bad about it. She said that she doesn't know why she can't be herself around me and for that reason she doesn't think we should meet again. She said she believes she ruined my vacation and cannot promise that if we meet again she'll be any different.
At first, part of me thought that maybe she just doesn't like me. But I know that's not true. Then I remembered what she said about being shy. I always thought that shy meant a little bit quiet and cute until you get used to somebody new. But now I'm learning it might go even deeper than that and I have to wonder if what I experienced was a deeper level of shyness, one that maybe she isn't aware of since she couldn't explain why she couldn't be herself around me in person, but she can online.
She told me once that we have something that people who live a lifetime together don't always find. That we get along so well. She also said that she feels good when she's with me (online) and for her that's the most important thing. We do have something good together and I really do wanna go see her again. I just I need some help understanding I guess .. how best to communicate with her.
So, does this sound like shyness? And if so, how can I be better with/for her? Not to brag but, I feel I'm very empathetic, understanding, compassionate and, I listen pretty well. I just didn't realize it before .. thought maybe she was blowing me off or something. But just the other day we talked about it again and .. it's like she's afraid to get together again because she's worried she'll act the same and ruin things for me. I want to reassure her without drawing attention to it .. like saying, "Hunny, I know you're shy but it's okay." That will likely just make her more uncomfortable .. feel like I look at her like she has some disease and now I'm gonna treat her differently. Maybe she will be/act the same .. but I have changed. Guess what I'm also asking for is any insight that might help me better communicate with her .. online now about us potentially getting together again and, after we meet.
Thanks everyone .. for listening and for anything you have to comment on. I really appreciate it.
~ John