I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place. I'm sorry if not. So I'm 25. 5 years ago on my way back home from a restaurant I got a horrible stomach ache. That stomach ache lasted a month. I think it was probably food poisoning. During that time I convinced myself that if I left the house I would get sick. So I stayed in. That lasted over 450 days. I never left the house. Finally I started making small trips (with the help of valiums) that turned into longer ones and actually overtime became a functional member of society lol. Last year I became pregnant and it all came back. Every time I leave the house I panic. I don't go anywhere unless I have mapped out all of the bathrooms on the way and they have to be close I only go to stores with large bathrooms because I fear the bathroom being occupied when I need it. I never eat before I leave the house and I only eat bland foods on days I do need to go out. I panic because my stomach hurts and my stomach hurts because I panic. I worry about my life with my son and how I will ever be a good mother. I feel so alone even though I have a boyfriend who tries to understand I worry he will then tired of it one day and that leaves me alone with a child and no job. So that is me... I feel better actually writing this out. 
oh yeah, and hello.
oh yeah, and hello. 
