zharl
Well-known member
So, I've seen lot's of diary threads on here. I guess this is one of those. I know I said "dairy." I said "dairy" because it made me giggle. Heh... So where do I go from here? I'm creating this for a reason...I want to say something...but what? I don't want to say too much...but what is "too much" anyway? I don't know. Is this first entry supposed to be introductory? Do I have to worry about you guys as an audience? Sheesh...this is a self-indulgant practice...
Gah...enough puttering around. I'm avoiding what I really want to say:
I feel as though I've recently been growing distant from people.
Not like loneliness, but with age or something. I don't know. Friends are moving on to careers, finding other people and forming relationships. Maybe that is loneliness. Here I am losing friends as they move on with their lives. At least that's what it feels like.
In other words, I'm in a rut. Things are stagnant. There isn't forward motion, but I'm not moving backwards either.
I mean, if things were shitty they would at least be interesting...
Nah...I suppose I'm happy for things being "fine." I guess the real question is if things are "fine" why don't I feel "fine." Now let me be clear: I know that emotions are ever-changing and we all have highs and lows...but this has been a rather long, consistent low.
Eh...Whatever. Not sure what they point of this was. Sorry if it bored you, but I'm not really writing to entertain.
Wow, this post looks terrible. I guess I'll try to make it a bit more cosmetically appealing later. I mean is it tough to read right now? Gah...whatever! I've got dinner in 15. Thanks for listening to my spiel.
Gah...enough puttering around. I'm avoiding what I really want to say:
I feel as though I've recently been growing distant from people.
Not like loneliness, but with age or something. I don't know. Friends are moving on to careers, finding other people and forming relationships. Maybe that is loneliness. Here I am losing friends as they move on with their lives. At least that's what it feels like.
In other words, I'm in a rut. Things are stagnant. There isn't forward motion, but I'm not moving backwards either.
I mean, if things were shitty they would at least be interesting...
Nah...I suppose I'm happy for things being "fine." I guess the real question is if things are "fine" why don't I feel "fine." Now let me be clear: I know that emotions are ever-changing and we all have highs and lows...but this has been a rather long, consistent low.
Eh...Whatever. Not sure what they point of this was. Sorry if it bored you, but I'm not really writing to entertain.
Wow, this post looks terrible. I guess I'll try to make it a bit more cosmetically appealing later. I mean is it tough to read right now? Gah...whatever! I've got dinner in 15. Thanks for listening to my spiel.