spectacular_views
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This is my first post on this forum. I found it a couple weeks ago, registered last week and haven't posted until today because I was thinking of how personal I wanted to get. I'm still not completely sure about it...but here goes.
I've dealt with all the depression/generalized anxiety/social anxiety since I was about 15/16. I'm 22 now. I've been on loads of different medications and finally started to be alright on Effexor XR and Zyprexa. Unfortunately, this was after completely ruining going to high school like a normal person and graduating. After a couple years of just working I got it in my head that I needed to go to college, got my G.E.D., and started at a somewhat small art school. I wasn't having too bad of anxiety there but the school itself was a complete joke. And expensive as hell. So I did everything I could to get into a much bigger, much better art school.
That brings us to now. Almost immediately my SA came back. I found myself going to class...but not being able to walk further than the door. I emailed all my Profs. and filled them in on my situation. Almost all of them were really understanding...but one didn't even have the decency to email me back. That was last week. This week I haven't even been able to go on campus. Also this whole ordeal has got my depression back acting up. I feel like I'm that helpless 16 year old again, as well as messing up college.
I have only talked about this with my mother and one friend so I guess that's why I wanted to post on here.
I've dealt with all the depression/generalized anxiety/social anxiety since I was about 15/16. I'm 22 now. I've been on loads of different medications and finally started to be alright on Effexor XR and Zyprexa. Unfortunately, this was after completely ruining going to high school like a normal person and graduating. After a couple years of just working I got it in my head that I needed to go to college, got my G.E.D., and started at a somewhat small art school. I wasn't having too bad of anxiety there but the school itself was a complete joke. And expensive as hell. So I did everything I could to get into a much bigger, much better art school.
That brings us to now. Almost immediately my SA came back. I found myself going to class...but not being able to walk further than the door. I emailed all my Profs. and filled them in on my situation. Almost all of them were really understanding...but one didn't even have the decency to email me back. That was last week. This week I haven't even been able to go on campus. Also this whole ordeal has got my depression back acting up. I feel like I'm that helpless 16 year old again, as well as messing up college.
I have only talked about this with my mother and one friend so I guess that's why I wanted to post on here.