ces4r87
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Someone tell me, is this love or something far more unhealthy?
About 2 years ago, I met this girl in class and I think I've written about her on this forum before. Anywayz, I met her the first day of junior year in colllege. The professor paired us up to interview each other and then introduce each other to the class. Like usual, I merely contributed to the conversation. She asked most question and I very briefly answered. After that, we sat next to each other for the entire semester. she would talk to me every now and then. I would just smile and say a few things back as well. Sometimes I would get tongue tied or stutter, but she just smiled and she would never give me the "What's wrong with this guy" look that I got from most people, even from people that were usually friendly with me. She never asked, "why are you so quiet?" which I've heard millions of times. She was just a beautuiful person, but I knew I had no shot with her. She already had a boyfriend whom I had no shot of competing against. At the end of the semester, she told me, " We're having another class together next semester!" and we did. The first day, when I walked into the class, she told me to sit next to her. The semster went by just like the previous, except I had more stuff say this time. not much but it was an improvement from last time. Twice she even laughed at the little corny jokes I said. SOmetimes the professor broke the class up into groups and she always made sure I was in hers. Around the end of the semster, she broke up with her boyfriend and seemed pretty sad most of the time. That's when I came into this forum and asked you guys what should I do in this situation since I really really liked her. I got some great advice, but my cowardly self didn't do any of it. the semester finished and our little frienship or whatever you could call that remained in school. Time came to choose classes for the next semester and I doubted I would ever see her again. I knew she was an english major so I chose 2 english classes as electives just in case. and I was lucky.about 2 weeks later, I got an email from her saying, "we have to get through another class together!" and we did get through another class together. Only this time, she got to see a lot more of my flaws. the class involved a lot of group discussions, and I would always go blank in front of the entire class. It was some of my most embarassing moments. She still always smiled at me. She always gave me the most real smiles I ever recieved from anyone. It's like she really meant it. She had another boyfriend now though and I wasn't able to improve our friendship from smiles, HI, and a little school talk. By the end of this semester, I had given up. It really hurt knowing that someone like her was out there but I couldn't have her. When I registered for the next semester, I only had to take math and computer classes and a 1 music elective. So I was sure I wasnt gonna see her again. but, she ended up in one of my classes again. WHat are the odds? 4 semesters in a row, and only once where I actually tried to end up in one of her classes. I find out she's single again, but I really didn't do much about it. She was having a lot of trouble witht the class and she had missed a few very important classes. I helped her as much as I could. This is where we had our longest conversations, still just about school work. She didnt know much about me, but she called me genious, even though my gpa was just a 3.0. well, after spring break, she dropped the class. I saw her only once more after that. That was back in march and I havent seen her since. Next semester I only have to take 2 classes and then ill graduate. I don't think i'll ever see her again, or maybe just briefly. She has a boyfriend again. This is where the worst is, no matter how hard I try I can't stop thinking about her. It's gotten to the point where it actually hurts. Every secnd, something remnds me of her. I have her as a friend on facebook, but I barely use that. No one writes on my wall and neither do I. So that's what I want to ask. Do you think this is love or just an obsession. Maybe I feel like this because she's the only beatiful person that's actually treated me so nicely. What do you think? What should I do? How dO I forget?
About 2 years ago, I met this girl in class and I think I've written about her on this forum before. Anywayz, I met her the first day of junior year in colllege. The professor paired us up to interview each other and then introduce each other to the class. Like usual, I merely contributed to the conversation. She asked most question and I very briefly answered. After that, we sat next to each other for the entire semester. she would talk to me every now and then. I would just smile and say a few things back as well. Sometimes I would get tongue tied or stutter, but she just smiled and she would never give me the "What's wrong with this guy" look that I got from most people, even from people that were usually friendly with me. She never asked, "why are you so quiet?" which I've heard millions of times. She was just a beautuiful person, but I knew I had no shot with her. She already had a boyfriend whom I had no shot of competing against. At the end of the semester, she told me, " We're having another class together next semester!" and we did. The first day, when I walked into the class, she told me to sit next to her. The semster went by just like the previous, except I had more stuff say this time. not much but it was an improvement from last time. Twice she even laughed at the little corny jokes I said. SOmetimes the professor broke the class up into groups and she always made sure I was in hers. Around the end of the semster, she broke up with her boyfriend and seemed pretty sad most of the time. That's when I came into this forum and asked you guys what should I do in this situation since I really really liked her. I got some great advice, but my cowardly self didn't do any of it. the semester finished and our little frienship or whatever you could call that remained in school. Time came to choose classes for the next semester and I doubted I would ever see her again. I knew she was an english major so I chose 2 english classes as electives just in case. and I was lucky.about 2 weeks later, I got an email from her saying, "we have to get through another class together!" and we did get through another class together. Only this time, she got to see a lot more of my flaws. the class involved a lot of group discussions, and I would always go blank in front of the entire class. It was some of my most embarassing moments. She still always smiled at me. She always gave me the most real smiles I ever recieved from anyone. It's like she really meant it. She had another boyfriend now though and I wasn't able to improve our friendship from smiles, HI, and a little school talk. By the end of this semester, I had given up. It really hurt knowing that someone like her was out there but I couldn't have her. When I registered for the next semester, I only had to take math and computer classes and a 1 music elective. So I was sure I wasnt gonna see her again. but, she ended up in one of my classes again. WHat are the odds? 4 semesters in a row, and only once where I actually tried to end up in one of her classes. I find out she's single again, but I really didn't do much about it. She was having a lot of trouble witht the class and she had missed a few very important classes. I helped her as much as I could. This is where we had our longest conversations, still just about school work. She didnt know much about me, but she called me genious, even though my gpa was just a 3.0. well, after spring break, she dropped the class. I saw her only once more after that. That was back in march and I havent seen her since. Next semester I only have to take 2 classes and then ill graduate. I don't think i'll ever see her again, or maybe just briefly. She has a boyfriend again. This is where the worst is, no matter how hard I try I can't stop thinking about her. It's gotten to the point where it actually hurts. Every secnd, something remnds me of her. I have her as a friend on facebook, but I barely use that. No one writes on my wall and neither do I. So that's what I want to ask. Do you think this is love or just an obsession. Maybe I feel like this because she's the only beatiful person that's actually treated me so nicely. What do you think? What should I do? How dO I forget?
