Journey of Jazz

SteinerOfThule said: ↑

It's a nice song.


I am sure they will appreciate it.

Yeah, I've always loved that song. Steiner do you know who I'm talking about?

SteinerOfThule said: ↑

I had a certain idea when you mentioned them 4-5 posts ago. I am sure they don't hate you. What is there to hate?

I just feel like I cause them stress and irritate them, maybe that's why they chose to walk away.

SteinerOfThule said: ↑

I think um they just have a hard time dealing with socialization perhaps. I don't really know this person though~ very confusing. They would probably have a very hard time answering.

Oh, I see. I always thought that was a possibility, I just was never sure.

I'm doing a bit better. Is it still painful? Yes. I'm working towards moving past the pain though.

I was watching Forrest Gump earlier, yet again. I've realized how much I really like that movie. They've been playing it almost every night on AMC. I wish I could go visit my older sister right now to talk to her about things. I prefer talking with her in person than over the phone.

My mom's going out with her boyfriend tonight, so I'll have the house to myself again. She said that he's taking her out dancing. I've never been a very good dancer. I like to dance, but I'm pretty bad at it. Dancing alone in the house when no one is there to see me is fun though, at least to me. I find that it helps me let loose and it cheers me up a bit. I've always loved singing when I'm alone in the house too. I get pretty shy singing with my mom or dad in the house, but its relaxing and soothing for me to sing alone in the house.

Be sure to blast some music and order a pizza!

S_Spartan said: ↑

Be sure to blast some music and order a pizza!

Mmm, pizza doesn't sound like a bad idea. I always get nervous ordering pretty much anything over the phone though. I may just settle for some clam chowder and loud music.

Oh no no!!! If you have Pizza Hut around you can order online now!! 🙂

S_Spartan said: ↑

Oh no no!!! If you have Pizza Hut around you can order online now!! 🙂

Hmm, there is a Pizza Hut near me. You've caused some naughty thoughts about ordering a pizza online and eating many, many slices to enter my mind 🤭. I know I shouldn't, but the idea is really tempting.
A Hawaiian pizza sounds great right now :thinking:.

Just remember that if you get a tummy ache later it's not my fault! 😛

S_Spartan said: ↑

Just remember that if you get a tummy ache later it's not my fault! 😛

I probably will get a stomach ache from eating too much if I do end up ordering one, but I'll keep in mind that it was my fault for being too tempted lol. I'm a sucker for Hawaiian pizza.

This is one of my favorite songs to dance to when I'm alone. I've posted it before in another thread in this forum. It makes me dance pretty much every time I hear it.

Dexys Midnight Runners- Come On Eileen - YouTube

Watching Forrest Gump the other day reminded me of something I always wished I could do as a kid, and something I still wish I could do. It'd be nice to be a bird and be able to fly away like Jenny wanted to do in the movie. Just fly away and get away from everything.

I keep having all of these thoughts that I'm trying to get rid of pop back into my mind. Its such a hard line to walk for me right now. Trying to forget, but always being reminded of it somehow. Maybe I just need more time.

I still have the house to myself. I don't think my mom's coming back until tomorrow. Technically it is tomorrow because its 2:27 a.m. here, but I mean that she'll probably be coming back much later this morning.

I've been listening to a lot of songs by The Doors tonight. I think it would have been great to have been able to see them in concert. This is one of my favorite songs by them:

The Doors - Love Her Madly - YouTube

I'm feeling really cold right now, even though I turned off the air conditioning in the house and I have a blanket wrapped around me right now. I need to turn the heat on, or I need a hug. I don't have anyone to give me a hug right now though, so I guess I'll settle for turning the heat on.

I really should not be up right now. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. I know that I'm pushing my body too far, pushing myself to stay awake, but I can't seem to stop doing it some nights. Lately I've been having trouble getting to sleep even more than usual. Whenever I try to get to bed early I end up just laying on my back with my arms crossed behind my head, looking at my bedroom ceiling and thinking about things. If I do actually fall asleep, I'm back up just a few hours later.

Well, I'm starting to doze off. I'm doing that thing that my dog Spanky does when he looks really sleepy and starts to close his eyes, but then he opens them back up wide again when he feels himself falling asleep haha. I'm going to go get in bed now. Goodnight diary.

Clair de Lune - YouTube

I got done working out and taking a shower a little while ago, so now I've been trying to catch up on some class work, ugh. One of the classes that I'm taking, Fine Arts Appreciation, is self-paced and has been pretty easy so far, but my other class, Composition, isn't self-paced and is tougher, so I have to try to stay on top of the due dates. I've been falling behind. I feel like this:

My dad's coming over for Easter. We're having ham, cabbage, and macaroni and cheese for dinner, mmm. It should be pretty good.

SteinerOfThule said: ↑

Yeah, it should be a pretty nice dinner. My mom said she might make a cake too, yummy.