3lefts
Well-known member
My mom said something to me when I was younger. It was as if she wrote it on a piece of paper and glued it with super glue to my brain because if hasn't let since, and I can't stop thinking about it lately.
Is it easier for you to fail now without trying, then to try your hardest and fail in the end?
I don't know how to get over this fear of not being good enough, and I'm about to lose the best chance I have, at the life I want to live, because I'm afraid I'll fail.
I've never tried.
I can't get myself to. It's like writer's block. Just this mental block. Nothing motivates, nothing ignites, nothing triggers. No life, no desire. Living separate from what I want. I know I want it, I know I want it because I'm just as terrified to lose it. Yet, that causes no drive. No life. I have no life. My life has been hope. If I lose this, I will be nothing. I feel so stupid. Such a simple thing to overcome and yet it disables me. I shutdown. Incapable.
Where is my fight?
Is it easier for you to fail now without trying, then to try your hardest and fail in the end?
I don't know how to get over this fear of not being good enough, and I'm about to lose the best chance I have, at the life I want to live, because I'm afraid I'll fail.
I've never tried.
I can't get myself to. It's like writer's block. Just this mental block. Nothing motivates, nothing ignites, nothing triggers. No life, no desire. Living separate from what I want. I know I want it, I know I want it because I'm just as terrified to lose it. Yet, that causes no drive. No life. I have no life. My life has been hope. If I lose this, I will be nothing. I feel so stupid. Such a simple thing to overcome and yet it disables me. I shutdown. Incapable.
Where is my fight?