BlueWeepingRose
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I'm not sure what happened but I feel like I lost myself. And I want to get that person back. I let my ex boyfriend back into my life and I regret this. I've noticed my depression has gotten worse. Most of the time he's always upset or down, and his moods overtime started to affect me.
Haven't said anything about it yet cause I'm kinda scared too, to be honest. But it's gotten much worse and now I feel like I should cut ties off with him cause of how badly he's affecting me. Deep down I feel really horrible, but it's depressing me to the point where I've been sleeping in bed. Always been the kind of friend that will always stick through and through for everyone. Many of things changed, I lost some of my friends and it's gotten harder for me to talk to anyone. Now I feel really alone. Find most of time trying to reach out in forums and post to keep myself busy. Not many things are enjoyable like they were before. Feel really tired or sore, and I hate the way I feel right now. Been bottling this in for so long now and I always wanted to post this up in many forums I've been too but I always fear that people will judge me or ridicule me in some way.... it's really hard for me to be open right now. And the first time I've ever been honest with myself.
Most of the time I daydream so I can escape all the horrible things that has happened to me, I try to block out all the horrible things that has happened. And I wish none of it happened. I would say more but I'm scared too...
Haven't said anything about it yet cause I'm kinda scared too, to be honest. But it's gotten much worse and now I feel like I should cut ties off with him cause of how badly he's affecting me. Deep down I feel really horrible, but it's depressing me to the point where I've been sleeping in bed. Always been the kind of friend that will always stick through and through for everyone. Many of things changed, I lost some of my friends and it's gotten harder for me to talk to anyone. Now I feel really alone. Find most of time trying to reach out in forums and post to keep myself busy. Not many things are enjoyable like they were before. Feel really tired or sore, and I hate the way I feel right now. Been bottling this in for so long now and I always wanted to post this up in many forums I've been too but I always fear that people will judge me or ridicule me in some way.... it's really hard for me to be open right now. And the first time I've ever been honest with myself.
Most of the time I daydream so I can escape all the horrible things that has happened to me, I try to block out all the horrible things that has happened. And I wish none of it happened. I would say more but I'm scared too...