hardy
Well-known member
I still cannot come to terms with the fact that...it's my own judgement on myself that is causing all the anxiety. It's impossible to say what others are thinking....they have their own petty lives to suffer. How we keep blaming things outside ourselves for the misery(of course some cases of mental n physical abuse don't come in this)
Do i love myself? BIG No. I have to be perfect, charismatic,charming, good looking, funny, then i may like myself. Not sure.
Can i be at peace with all the defects in me? Big No.....If this is the case i will not be happy until i become an Enlightened Jesus or a Budddha....Makes me wonder , is it possible to live happily ever??
Let me start with my looks, wait i can't change it. My charisma? Nah...i was never funny. My talking skills....i have read enough and nothing has worked, i still am at loss of words in front of people. I am so tired....now i am depressed as i cannot be the all Perfect man that i thought i should be.
What will make me Happy? Nothing? If this is the case, life sucks..!! I will not be what i want to be....i cannot be happy with what i have.
Do i love myself? BIG No. I have to be perfect, charismatic,charming, good looking, funny, then i may like myself. Not sure.
Can i be at peace with all the defects in me? Big No.....If this is the case i will not be happy until i become an Enlightened Jesus or a Budddha....Makes me wonder , is it possible to live happily ever??
Let me start with my looks, wait i can't change it. My charisma? Nah...i was never funny. My talking skills....i have read enough and nothing has worked, i still am at loss of words in front of people. I am so tired....now i am depressed as i cannot be the all Perfect man that i thought i should be.
What will make me Happy? Nothing? If this is the case, life sucks..!! I will not be what i want to be....i cannot be happy with what i have.