Here are the lyrics to Hamelech's post. Just look at the lyrics. These type of feelings have been exressed since b4 u were born. U're not alone. Others have the same feelings as u do. And there is hope. U're the one that can change everything in ur life. Its all up to U how u expereince things. I know the frustration ur feeling. I feel the same way. Watching others move through life while I seem perpetually stuck in the same place. I just know that it is about me. Not them. I hold myself back. Noone else is to blame. I think that's what ilmatross was talking about. Others opinions should have no bearing on who u are, what u do or how u think about urself. Its ultimately U that u have to face. It's U that is living ur life. And pple don't look at our blunders as much as we imagine they do. Everybody is looking out for themselves. So are u, so am I, so is everyone else. We (meaning everyone) are a self-absorbed species. Look at the things we on SPW post about. Our pain, our discomfort, how horrible our life is. etc. All focused around ourselves. Maybe the answer to SA is to put our attention onto others. Not focus on ourselves but focus on what others may be feeling and experiencing.
I am a Rock
A winter's day
In a deep and dark December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
Don't talk of love,
Well, I've heard the word before.
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.