awkwardamanda
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I just found out the only good friend I have left is moving out-of-province. It was bound to happen. Her family can't stay put. They almost went years ago. They've lived all over the city. It just came up out of nowhere. Two months ago, she was looking for a new apartment, but here, not other cities.
Every friend I've ever had has either moved, or we've just grown apart for whatever reason. She lived a block away during elementary school. Partway through grade seven, first year of junior high, she moved to another area and went to a new school. Meanwhile, the only other friend I had left ditched the both of us to be with new, more cool and popular friends. I managed to make a few new friends the next year, only one of whom is still a friend, but a distant friend at that. We managed to stay friends after she moved (and she's moved many times since then) but it wasn't the same. She met new people. I had some friends during high school but never really any close friends. I still felt like a loner. Even around other friends, at times I felt like I was third-wheeling. I spent six years at university and didn't even make one new friend. The only other friend I've made since then is someone I met on the internet.
So anyway, she's having a birthday/going away party at a lounge Friday night. I was supposed to have that evening off work but I already switched a shift with someone else, so I guess I'll have to go late. Maybe that's for the better cause it's going to be brutally awkward. I'm guessing there are going to be a lot of people there. I've met some of her other friends but they're just acquaintances. I don't know any of them very well. And now I should get some sort of gift. We don't normally give each other birthday gifts but if she's moving away I should get her something. I might just go with a gift card. I don't really know what would make a good going away gift.
As much as I like to be alone, I'm really going to have no social life left after this. We only got together once in a while, but now I'm just never going to go out at all. I'm left with an online friend and a distant friend I don't see much of anymore anyway. (That one is getting married soon and so I expect we'll only grow further apart now.) I've avoided joining facebook all this time but that might be about the only way to stay in touch at all now. She'll probably be back in town at some point. Her brother is still going to be here. But I don't really know if or when that will be. It's not like we can hang out anytime now.
Every friend I've ever had has either moved, or we've just grown apart for whatever reason. She lived a block away during elementary school. Partway through grade seven, first year of junior high, she moved to another area and went to a new school. Meanwhile, the only other friend I had left ditched the both of us to be with new, more cool and popular friends. I managed to make a few new friends the next year, only one of whom is still a friend, but a distant friend at that. We managed to stay friends after she moved (and she's moved many times since then) but it wasn't the same. She met new people. I had some friends during high school but never really any close friends. I still felt like a loner. Even around other friends, at times I felt like I was third-wheeling. I spent six years at university and didn't even make one new friend. The only other friend I've made since then is someone I met on the internet.
So anyway, she's having a birthday/going away party at a lounge Friday night. I was supposed to have that evening off work but I already switched a shift with someone else, so I guess I'll have to go late. Maybe that's for the better cause it's going to be brutally awkward. I'm guessing there are going to be a lot of people there. I've met some of her other friends but they're just acquaintances. I don't know any of them very well. And now I should get some sort of gift. We don't normally give each other birthday gifts but if she's moving away I should get her something. I might just go with a gift card. I don't really know what would make a good going away gift.
As much as I like to be alone, I'm really going to have no social life left after this. We only got together once in a while, but now I'm just never going to go out at all. I'm left with an online friend and a distant friend I don't see much of anymore anyway. (That one is getting married soon and so I expect we'll only grow further apart now.) I've avoided joining facebook all this time but that might be about the only way to stay in touch at all now. She'll probably be back in town at some point. Her brother is still going to be here. But I don't really know if or when that will be. It's not like we can hang out anytime now.