aw xxaimsxx =/ sounds like you're just stuck in a rut, need a change of pace, ya know?
surely college will bring something new for you, you should try to be excited about the future and decide what you want to make of it, because it's truly up to you. there will be different people in college, and even if you don't get up the courage to make friends on day one, the new environment and challenge of classes will get your mind working, give you something to do, focus on, and strive for. look at the challenges you're facing as experiments.. you don't have to do everything perfect, you don't have to live up to anyone but yourself. just be as positive as you can and look forward to your future with excitement.. you can build your confidence by doing productive things. even small things day to day, set little goals and allow yourself to feel accomplished by doing them.
whatever you do, just don't lose hope and don't give up, you're young and have tons of time to live and learn. stay positive and keep your head up. best wishes to you
