Falkor
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today I forced myself to meet a friend, and visit my old college.
I was friggin' nervous, because I was afraid of being in the school yard, because of all the school-ers around me, I actually felt this way eventually because It was very crowdy, but in reality I was happy that I did it, and just accepted the feelings, allow the anxious feelings inside, and just stay.
I was on verge about to leave, but I told myself I should not escape, I should learn to be in the moment and just have a good time. My old teachers even told me I look much more positive, like I've been making improvement, because they all knew I suffered from very hard time, being anxious and a timid girl. Now I look much more spontanious and happy, so this is a very pleasant compliment I should think about, I'm not the person I used to be, totally anxious, but still these events are freaking me out inside, but I'm not planning to show people anymore, because I want to do something with my life, I need to percieve it the way it is, and not hide, even though It's the most dark feeling I have ever felt, I want to step into the bright side of my life, and show people I can do more than I ever did.
So for me, I will push myself into it, since I came to realisation, that I really want to beat the SA, and kick it outta my life, punch in ya face, Superior Ass*ole!, haha (which means, that he's a superduper awesome in being a bastard ^^) but still, I'm thankful for SA that I found this forum , amazing people you all are
, I hope we can all tell the difference in the future.
It's all about fighting, pushing yourself, and allowing the thoughts/feelings.
I was friggin' nervous, because I was afraid of being in the school yard, because of all the school-ers around me, I actually felt this way eventually because It was very crowdy, but in reality I was happy that I did it, and just accepted the feelings, allow the anxious feelings inside, and just stay.
I was on verge about to leave, but I told myself I should not escape, I should learn to be in the moment and just have a good time. My old teachers even told me I look much more positive, like I've been making improvement, because they all knew I suffered from very hard time, being anxious and a timid girl. Now I look much more spontanious and happy, so this is a very pleasant compliment I should think about, I'm not the person I used to be, totally anxious, but still these events are freaking me out inside, but I'm not planning to show people anymore, because I want to do something with my life, I need to percieve it the way it is, and not hide, even though It's the most dark feeling I have ever felt, I want to step into the bright side of my life, and show people I can do more than I ever did.
So for me, I will push myself into it, since I came to realisation, that I really want to beat the SA, and kick it outta my life, punch in ya face, Superior Ass*ole!, haha (which means, that he's a superduper awesome in being a bastard ^^) but still, I'm thankful for SA that I found this forum , amazing people you all are
, I hope we can all tell the difference in the future.It's all about fighting, pushing yourself, and allowing the thoughts/feelings.
