I really do. I have very minimal experience with women. Most of it happened in my high school years, and even that was short lived as it was just some girl that felt like kissing someone and I happened to be there. Another thing I deal with is a lack of a social life, but I feel there is hope in meeting people that could be my friends, I don’t think it would matter that I am really ugly but when finding a woman it apparently it does.
I made a pathetic attempt to date by joining an online dating website a few months back. I must have sent close to 30 messages and only one responded, but stopped contact with me as soon as she found out I had no job. I am certain I have this problem because of my looks. I am not a moron or a douche bag and I consider myself to be a sensitive, educated person. My face is ugly I suppose. It must be really ugly, uglier than I imagined. I was so sure that my looks were the probably that I did something crazy to prove it, an “experiment” we can call it. I made a fake profile with a few pictures I found online of a fairly good looking guy. I started messaging the same very girls I had messaged with my original profile, and within the same day I was getting replies! Of course I am not going to converse any more with these people with the fake profile, I will delete it soon, I just wanted to see what would happen if I were a good looking guy. This just makes me hate myself even more. I hate my ****in looks. I wish I was handsome like that guy in the pictures. I am bitter and angry. I remember I used to message girls that I wasn’t that attracted to or they weren’t as tall as I liked them to be but their personalities seemed interesting and we had the same hobbies, so I overlooked appearances and kept my mind open, and even those girls ignored me! Basically I was being rejected by girls I was lowering my standards to. So I put up this fake profile with a mediocre description of myself, and deliberately misspelled a few words and still I got replies because of that guy’s looks. I hate women and I give up. Or maybe I should say I hate myself and my looks, but I resent women for only seeing how ugly I and nothing else, I make a fake profile and make this guy out to be some type of moron based on his description of himself and how he writes and just because of his looks he got replies, unless those girls are attracted to morons. I thought men were the usually the ones who put the utmost importance in their partners looks, women are worse! You have to be good looking and perfect in every way. I even remember coming across a bold females profile stating how the first thing that mattered to her is the guy’s looks, then his personality is going to be the deal breaker, she said. A woman like that wants Mr. Perfect. She was at least bold enough to be open and honest, so that ugly guys like me steer away from messaging her.
I hate myself so much because of this, because of how ugly I am. It’s enough to contemplate suicide. I wish I was handsome…
I made a pathetic attempt to date by joining an online dating website a few months back. I must have sent close to 30 messages and only one responded, but stopped contact with me as soon as she found out I had no job. I am certain I have this problem because of my looks. I am not a moron or a douche bag and I consider myself to be a sensitive, educated person. My face is ugly I suppose. It must be really ugly, uglier than I imagined. I was so sure that my looks were the probably that I did something crazy to prove it, an “experiment” we can call it. I made a fake profile with a few pictures I found online of a fairly good looking guy. I started messaging the same very girls I had messaged with my original profile, and within the same day I was getting replies! Of course I am not going to converse any more with these people with the fake profile, I will delete it soon, I just wanted to see what would happen if I were a good looking guy. This just makes me hate myself even more. I hate my ****in looks. I wish I was handsome like that guy in the pictures. I am bitter and angry. I remember I used to message girls that I wasn’t that attracted to or they weren’t as tall as I liked them to be but their personalities seemed interesting and we had the same hobbies, so I overlooked appearances and kept my mind open, and even those girls ignored me! Basically I was being rejected by girls I was lowering my standards to. So I put up this fake profile with a mediocre description of myself, and deliberately misspelled a few words and still I got replies because of that guy’s looks. I hate women and I give up. Or maybe I should say I hate myself and my looks, but I resent women for only seeing how ugly I and nothing else, I make a fake profile and make this guy out to be some type of moron based on his description of himself and how he writes and just because of his looks he got replies, unless those girls are attracted to morons. I thought men were the usually the ones who put the utmost importance in their partners looks, women are worse! You have to be good looking and perfect in every way. I even remember coming across a bold females profile stating how the first thing that mattered to her is the guy’s looks, then his personality is going to be the deal breaker, she said. A woman like that wants Mr. Perfect. She was at least bold enough to be open and honest, so that ugly guys like me steer away from messaging her.
I hate myself so much because of this, because of how ugly I am. It’s enough to contemplate suicide. I wish I was handsome…