Quietguy11
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I don't have any more self esteem. No reason to live except maybe not going to hell. Having a family, career, etc are not reasons. I am hurting. I'm always being made fun of and looked at funny. No matter how I do my hair or dress, I'm still being called ugly and fat. I don't know if you can be mentally handicapped/disabled and know that you are but I feel that way. Every where I go some people treat me like I'm retarded or stupid. They're all sarcastic and rude. I feel so uncomfortable. I don't like going outside or being in public at all. It is like I don't know how to behave as a person.
Should I get therapy or is it just a waste of time?
I know if I don't stay here, I'll end up somewhere worse...
I often say this a lot but I found that the solution to a lack of self-esteem is to find something that you are meant to do and have natural gifts and talents with. Once you start developing the skills that come with perfecting what it is you are meant to do in life it will automatically give you confidence because you will know that your beauty is ultimately expressed through whatever it is you are meant to do.
If you like drawing, express beauty through your art work. Art is an expression of a person like none other hobby. Draw what is on your mind, what you are feeling at the time, and let it be an expression of the beauty of your mind. Learn to realize that physical appearances are not always the most important thing, and a lot of the way we think and how we perceive people is not always the case; but if it is, then they are the ones that have the problem because they are judgmental and look down on other people. Learn not to let it effect you. Eventually you will naturally get fed up with what people think and it won't effect you nearly as much.
I have learned to accept myself for who I am, and not let people walk all over me. I had to drop some pretty close friends in order to find happiness and fulfillment in myself. A lot of my friends were just using me and in fact weren't really friends at all. I am much happier just watching anime, reading manga, hanging out with family, or drawing. I encourage you to realize that you have taken the first step toward the road of confidence. You acknowledged that you have no self-esteem left. Now begin challenging yourself each and every day to love yourself and to slowly work toward developing your confidence and self-esteem little by little. Just don't give into despair. Realize that despair will only make you stronger by persevering through it.