I have to revisit my highschool

Lamb

Lamb

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As the title suggest, I have to head back to my highschool to request transcripts be sent out to colleges. My counselor and some of the same representatives still work there. That's good in a way but, they're going to remember me. I will have to make chit-chat. They're going to ask what I've been up to in my life. I don't want to tell them how much time I've taken off.

I was "that kid" that wasn't suppose to screw up. How am I ever going to explain myself? Ughh..such a big fear. I'm going to freeze like a deer in headlights.

Please guys, tell me how illogical I'm being. That they're not going to judge me, and if they do it'll be alright. I've been putting this off for so long. My counselor is so nice too... I don't know how I could ever fear her. I also hate being around highschool kids. All the terrible memories start flowing.
 
squidgee

squidgee

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Yes, you're being illogical and imagining the worst.
Besides once you get it over with, you won't have to worry about it anymore.

btw I like your tf2 avatar
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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^I agree. You are being illogical, things might not always go as you planned but that doesn't mean you screwed up. But feelings aren't always rational, your anxiety is making a small thing look like a big deal. I guess its one of the times when you need to push yourself and just do it. Good luck.
 
Saga

Saga

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Lamb said:
As the title suggest, I have to head back to my highschool to request transcripts be sent out to colleges. My counselor and some of the same representatives still work there. That's good in a way but, they're going to remember me. I will have to make chit-chat. They're going to ask what I've been up to in my life. I don't want to tell them how much time I've taken off.

I was "that kid" that wasn't suppose to screw up. How am I ever going to explain myself? Ughh..such a big fear. I'm going to freeze like a deer in headlights.

Please guys, tell me how illogical I'm being. That they're not going to judge me, and if they do it'll be alright. I've been putting this off for so long. My counselor is so nice too... I don't know how I could ever fear her. I also hate being around highschool kids. All the terrible memories start flowing.
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Firstly, sorry if I come across as harsh, and also I feel like a huge hypocrite here, because that's exactly what I would imagine myself doing... but just, try to distract yourself from the meeting until it's time. You can't predict what's going to happen and how they'll react. I don't know the people at your school, but I would imagine they wouldn't be as judgemental as you think. They'll probably just be too preoccupied wondering what everyone will think of how they've been going, or something like that. :) Keep positive. ;D
 
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laure15

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Lamb said:
Please guys, tell me how illogical I'm being. That they're not going to judge me, and if they do it'll be alright. I've been putting this off for so long. My counselor is so nice too... I don't know how I could ever fear her. I also hate being around highschool kids. All the terrible memories start flowing.
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You can go to the high school right after first period when all those kids have their first class or after school when kids go home. This way you won't have to bump into a lot of people and maybe feel more confident. I feel more confident around less people.
 
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GarryU

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I suggest you use the "I'm going to feel bad, so what?" attitude, it's the best thing you can do. Helps massively.
 
Lamb

Lamb

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Thanks everyone!

I'll have to try the "i'm going to feel bad, so what?" attitude to see if it works. haha
 
MikeyC

MikeyC

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Jesus, I don't envy you. I would hate to go back to my high school for any reason. Good luck and I hope it goes smoother than you think.
 
hardy

hardy

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take someone with you? maybe a friend or family member? it's okay to ask for help..!
 
Lamb

Lamb

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hardy said:
take someone with you? maybe a friend or family member? it's okay to ask for help..!
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I would but the only person I've got, I'm afraid she'll want to strike up conversations with some of the teachers. >_> I'd rather spend as little time as possible there.
 
hardy

hardy

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lamb....i have had anxiety for 12 yrs now and my anxiety worsens when i try to escape life. I had to suffer....but by escaping things constantly i have put off my recovery....i thought there is a remedy...but there isn't any.....we just had to suffer....be the ridicule of others.....and learn things the hard way and one final day when our time in the prison is over, we are free. We have to take the pain man....there is no other way....

now go to the school by yourself and be the unpleasant a*** that you are....be the ridicule of your trainer.....let the worse happen....feel bad about it....let the worse happen.....take the sh**......we deserve it because this is natures way of making us stronger....we will be supermans one day....we were not born for smaller things.....god/nature believed in us to face the worse things in life and become supermans.....i truly believe in this theory.....just face the pain.....there is no other way. If we escape suffering, we are just prolonging our recovery.......face it to die...be a soldier now.....same goes to me....am not going to escape it no more.....sick of hiding in my closet.
 
Lamb

Lamb

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I know you mean well Hardy and i'll take your advice to heart, but there's no need to call me unpleasant. You don't really know how I am in real life. Thanks
 
hardy

hardy

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lamb...do u see how we see negative in everything? i don't give a rats ar** if you are pleasant or unpleasant, i dont care about you(no one cares about us...lol)...what i mean is the unpleasantness of a social phobic....

don't get me wrong though...i would have felt like you if someone called me unpleasant....
 
hardy

hardy

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i don't care if you die t'rrow...no ill-will intended....but i don't even care about my parents if they weren't providing me shelter n giving me pocket money....no one cares...the only person who cares for you is yourself....others are selfish when they care...they want something from you in return.
 
dmsteyn

dmsteyn

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That's a common theory of human selfishness. I don't accept it, but you are free to do so.
 
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ImNotMyIllness

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I don't buy Hardy's theory. People do care. I care about you lamb. And, I bet you're very pleasant in person, when you're not administering a well deserved scolding. *wink
 
dmsteyn

dmsteyn

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I'm trying not to be too hard on hardy; maybe he's having a difficult or trying time.

I just happen to have an aversion to too much negativity.
 
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