FriendlyShadow
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As I assume, many believe friends have plentiful benefits in regards of helping you and encouraging you. But inside some of those "friends" they easily mask their deceitfulness, honesty, and kindness. I have been burdened with the same type of damn friends no matter how I try and be a part of them. And what does that follow up to? Just another way of piling their rude, unacceptable behaviors on top of me as much as I try to tolerate with it. To all people who are going to say because you don't stick up for yourself. Well you know what, standing my ground is an even worse attempt to stop them. No matter if I stand my ground or not, I lose in the end. I try and try, and I fail and fail and fail. That's all I do. Fail . Now, I'm becoming to realize that I have become those nice weirdos who try and cheer up people, but for what? I have done nothing but waste my precious time offering my kindness, my respect, and especially tolerance to those who have been acceptive and unacceptive of me, that includes my family as well. They just think of me as that weird girl with weird interests and a weird personality that isolates myself from them, other people too. My main question to ponder is, if this whole true friends things is just one big hoax. Most people would say "There tough to find" yadadada, but you know what, I find it all to be bull. Sure there might few nice people out there out of the world's percentage, but even there are true friends who in the end mask their nice faces to show off the true colors that defines them. What true friend is going to sit down and listen to my problems, what true friend is going to accept me for who I am? Because as far as I can tell, zero of them. I'm very dissapointed in parents who can't raise their kids better with their behaviors, a sign of not good parenting. But you know what the biggest thing I have learned, that isn't me who has to change their behaviors, but it's me who has to change just for their selfishness. I believe this society has an unfair equality with these people getting away with this and that because that's who they are, and these people can be locked in hell's jail to get all the misery and loathing hurled at them. So, when I grow up and have a job(hopefully) I'll still communicate, pretend everything in life is filled with rainbows and flowers, and try to make aquantances. But that's all I'm going to offer to people in the real world. Just aquantances, and that's it. I don't want to fish for friends anymore because I'm done. I don't want any friendship, the extroverts can find other extroverted friend to keep them company, they don't need to find a person like me for them to worry about my quietness because that chance is now dead. Until then, maybe being hermit is the best option for me. So, I just want to let everyone know that I've attempted my friendship tasks and now I'm done to do them.