Luke1993
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I'm sorry everyone I said to myself I would not post long rants here, (I don't think anybody wants to read my boring stories) but I'm very sad right now and I just need to type some stuff. Basically these forums are my life, I spend all day on here, you people are the only ones I "talk" to.
My brother though, he is superior in every single way it's not even funny. He is three years older than me and he has it all, where as I have next to nothing. He's clever, funny, does sports, has friends, is at university and is every girl's ideal man. But Luke does not have any of these things.
I suppose all of this hatred towards him begun because of the fact that I inherited my mother's hip disability, I call it the "cripple gene" where as he did not and is perfectly fine and healthy. I have always envied him for this. The fact that he can excel at all these sports and I can't even run, it greatly saddens me.
I just have so much hatred for him. I fantasise about killing him. I know it's wrong, e's my brother, but it depresses me so much he is always the one that our family loves, I am just a spare tyre, obsolete with no use whatsoever. If he didn't exist I may have been able to cope a bit more. He has his own place now but today he has come round to stay to speak to my family. Seeing him makes me so.....angry. I know it's not his fault I'm disabled but I still cannot help feeling so much hatred inside me. I think I'm slowly losing my sanity.
Is there anyone else who has some sort of sibling rivalry like this? I swear no matter what it is he is always superior. I wish so much I could be him.
My brother though, he is superior in every single way it's not even funny. He is three years older than me and he has it all, where as I have next to nothing. He's clever, funny, does sports, has friends, is at university and is every girl's ideal man. But Luke does not have any of these things.
I suppose all of this hatred towards him begun because of the fact that I inherited my mother's hip disability, I call it the "cripple gene" where as he did not and is perfectly fine and healthy. I have always envied him for this. The fact that he can excel at all these sports and I can't even run, it greatly saddens me.
I just have so much hatred for him. I fantasise about killing him. I know it's wrong, e's my brother, but it depresses me so much he is always the one that our family loves, I am just a spare tyre, obsolete with no use whatsoever. If he didn't exist I may have been able to cope a bit more. He has his own place now but today he has come round to stay to speak to my family. Seeing him makes me so.....angry. I know it's not his fault I'm disabled but I still cannot help feeling so much hatred inside me. I think I'm slowly losing my sanity.
Is there anyone else who has some sort of sibling rivalry like this? I swear no matter what it is he is always superior. I wish so much I could be him.