dannyboy65
Well-known member
I try so hard to get this out of my head. It's been there since the incident. I have so much guilt and regret on my shoulders it feels like a weight and it's killing me. I've been holding it in for so damn long that my mental health is going down. I'm stressed and I don't sleep, I need peace in my mind and I don't know what to do anymore.
I am going to just say it. I miss my ex girlfriend and I shouldn't of given up on her when times got tough for her. I wasn't a real man, I gave up on her and left her. Then for months I said bad things about her so I could try to stop caring for her. I know I can't go back and fix this. I know that she doesn't think of me anymore. I know that I should move on. I try every single day to move on and I've been living my life and still doing things right.
I want to talk to her and tell her I'm sorry. But I won't. Because I know she has moved on and doesn't want anything to do with me. I respect her feelings towards me and I know that I can't fix this. So I will live with this weight from now on knowing that I screwed up.
I just had to write this. I know there isn't much advice able to be given but I remember I told her about this site when we were dating and she made a profile. She doesn't check it often anymore, but if she ever does again which maybe never. But in the slightest chance she does, maybe she will read this and know that I'm sorry.
I am going to just say it. I miss my ex girlfriend and I shouldn't of given up on her when times got tough for her. I wasn't a real man, I gave up on her and left her. Then for months I said bad things about her so I could try to stop caring for her. I know I can't go back and fix this. I know that she doesn't think of me anymore. I know that I should move on. I try every single day to move on and I've been living my life and still doing things right.
I want to talk to her and tell her I'm sorry. But I won't. Because I know she has moved on and doesn't want anything to do with me. I respect her feelings towards me and I know that I can't fix this. So I will live with this weight from now on knowing that I screwed up.
I just had to write this. I know there isn't much advice able to be given but I remember I told her about this site when we were dating and she made a profile. She doesn't check it often anymore, but if she ever does again which maybe never. But in the slightest chance she does, maybe she will read this and know that I'm sorry.